MikeW

I lost my wife on 11/23/04 from Kindey cancer. Chirs was diagnosed on 9/17. By then the cancer was in stage 4. We thought we may have a year or two togheher, but all we had was 67 days. She just wasted away in front of me. After the third trip to the hospital, she told me that she would not go back. So for the last 9 days Chirs was at home and we had a visiting nurse for a week and then hospic for only two days. The day Chris died I prayed for two things. That Chris would not have to suffer anymore and that I would be with her when she went home. Both of my prayers were answered. I was holding her hand, she looked at me one last time, took a breath and was gone, gone home to be with her Mom, brothers and friends. I miss her so much. We were married 35 years and 1 day. As sick as she was, she was not going to die on our anniversary. All of our children are grown and do not live close to me. The weekends are the worst. At least during the week I have work to keep me busy. We have a number of friends here that offer to do anythiing, but there is nothing anyone can do that is not on this journey. Finding web sites such as this one is a big help. Here we can share our thoughts and pain and you all understand what we are going through. Chris 9/12/50 - 11/23/04 Forever and a day.