This is so beautiful. I think sometimes people forget how to speak/act/behave around people that have gone through a loss. My best friend's dad passed on New Year's morning. I feel for their whole family because I always felt like a family member. I know it's not quite the same, but people I work with just don't understand. They expect me to "get over it" quickly. I'm a human being with lots of feelings all mixed up and crazy. I can't just "get over it" much less quickly. The strange thing is not one person asked me what my needs are... they just assume. They assume that because I cry at my desk or can't stay focused that I need counseling. They assume that I need to be entertained and to keep my mind off of my feelings, which is not what I want or need to do. I need/want to be able to experience all the mixed up and crazy feelings that I'm going through. I need to feel all of these feelings so that I can validate them. I'll never get passed feelings that I cannot validate. Thanks for letting me vent. It's another one of those crazy mixed up feelings.
