My heart goes out to you Shauna, sounds like you experienced something similar! Unfortunately we knew what had taken mom from us, not that it made it any better or easier at all, but at least we have a name for it. I always thought if the doctors informed us of what was going to happen I could be better prepared, but you know truth be told, nothing could’ve prepared us for that, it was horrible! Especially seeing a loved one in that condition. I am like you I relive that day over and over again wishing it was a bad dream and that she is going to come home to us! That day is always there and will always be there! I’ve been told it gets easier and that the good memories surface, which I want, I don’t like seeing that day! You are completely right about that day, things we had to decide on that should’ve never had to be decided, my best friend and confidant now gone and so much more that I’m only discovering as time goes on. What I don’t’ understand about her family is, how can you ignore the fact she died? She was your sister, daughter. Trust me I know it’s painful, but come on! I told my dad, if it’s continues I can’t be around people who don’t want to talk about her, she was a wonderful person and not to talk about her is a disgrace to her memory. You got that right about it being an adventure as you are the only one who can work through the jungle of pain and frustration. How long ago since your mom passed? Today is my birthday and the first one without mom, so far it’s been very sad and painful day.