beckyb

Hi all My husband died almost a year ago and those that say we should be over it don't know what they are talking about. Grief is a very personal thing. You go along at your own pace. Now some days are better than others and I have gotten to the point that weeks go along and they are ok. But Ron's birthday was last month and it thru me into a tailspin and I feel like he just died again. Now my birthday is coming and I really dread that. But just hang in there and don't try to hide what you feel. what every emotion over takes you go with it and let it out. Come here often and post it really does help to get it all out and be among those WHO DO UNDERSTAND!!! Take care have a peaceful day. Becky

Hi jeanne Yes it does seem way to young to have to go through this. Ron's 60th birthday is Sunday and I am thinking so much about him. But he was so sick on his birthday last year that I try to convince myself that I wouldn't want him to still be here and still so sick. I am 47 and sometimes I feel that my life is over. I don't want to be alone but I also just don't have anything to share with anyone else right now. I don't have the strenth to even think of another relationship. Oh well. It will all work out and someday the grief won't be so fresh or as painful. At least I hope so. I hope things are going well for you. Have a peacefull day. Becky

oh boy yes i know what you mean. The lonliness is only somthing that can be fixed by the presence of your loved one. I miss Ron so much. He died in June 2004 after a long illness. I try and stay busy and be with friends and family but most of the time it just doesn' t help. It isn't the same as being with him. I miss the things only we did together. I miss kissing his forehead at night. I miss coming home from work and having the porch light on which meant that Ron made dinner and was feeling good. I miss getting in the care and just driving with no particular direction in mind. I often wonder if I can ever expect to have another relationship and then I think why would I want what I can't have? I want Ron. Ron was 59 I am 47. It definately helps to find a message board like this to connect with other people. Take care and have a peacefull day. Becky