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Sadly the number of victims among Croatian firefighters has increased to 12. Two of them minors. One is still fighting fot his life.

Jan, you're not crazy, it's normal that you're feeling this way. I guess it's a sort of protection, it makes us survive. Seeking professional health is nothing you should be ashamed of. If you feel you need it, find it. Take care.

I am sorry for your loss. It does take a long time to accept it happened, especially when it's so sudden. After some time these feelings of his presence and the anticipation of his call won't be so painful adn maybe you'll be grateful for them. I know you probably don't care about the details, why he died, but my advice is that you ask for them. Because at some point maybe you will want to know and you wouldn't want to spend the rest of your life wondering what happened, who was to blame (if anybody) and if it could have been prevented.

I'm reading the forum again, after a long time (I was just too tired of grief, I guess). Anyway ... it feels good to know that so many of the you are still here. KayC, Walt, Ustwo, Dusky ... and others, I haven't checked everyone yet It feels kind of ... returning home.

Jamie, lately I haven't written much on the forum. I am sorry for your loss. When I read your words, I feel as if I was reading my own words from a few weeks/months ago. Feeling that you just can't continue faking that you can make it and that things would be "ok". When I entered this world of grief, there came another shock when I realized that not only my love died but also, that most of my "friends" vanished. But I see now that almost everybody who lost someone they love have this experience. Yes, there are friends and so called "friends". But, what I want to say is, that only now I also realize that it may be that a lot of people are gone, but there are new people, and now I can tell who my real friends are.

Lori, I'm taking cipralex/lexapro. I started to take them about 3 months agowhen was also phisycally so down that I couldn't do anything - panic attacks, I was scared all the time ... They DO help!

Yes, loneliness is hard ... Anxiety attack - I've had them too, and I am quite sure it's because of being lonely all the time. However, I went to see my doctor and I'm on antidepressants now and feeling much better. Physically and also emotionally. I'm not suggesting you should do the same, but it's helping me. At least for now. And Marty and Derek, thank you for the poem.

KayC, just like Marty said: we'll all be there with you!

Maylissa, only now I read about your loss. I am so sorry. I just don't know what else to say, it's so hard to think about letting our dear animals go. Though we know that someday it will happen, but ... I am sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry, KayC, that you're feeling this way. You're feeling betrayed and can't talk to George about it. The fact that he made a few mistakes and didn't tell you about his visits to his ex-girlfriend doesn't mean he didn't love you. Of course you know that but still it must hurt because he isn't there to explain you his reasons. Have you met his ex-girlfriend? Maybe it would help you to talk to her, just to make things clear? Well, just a suggestion?

Good to hear from you, Walt!!!

Maylissa, I apologize for not being able to express myself the right way. Of course I didn't want to say that, unlike the rest of us, you want to think about the time when your cat dies. Of course none of us want to. What I meant was that most of us are probabla unable to face the reality and unable to accept the CHANCE it can really happen. That's why we avoid the subject. Even now I'm not sure I really explained the reason. I don't know if it can be explained. I know you've been under a lot of stress, I'm sorry. But you know you can come here and talk to us, if that helps at all?

How's Walt doing?

Maylissa, this is the third or fourth time that I'm trying to write here. The answer is so diffucult. You're right, people don't want to talk about anticipatory grief. We don't want to think about it. It's too hard to think about how it is going to be "then". We don't want to believe it can really happen. We know our beloved animals will most likely leave us someday, we know their life will probably be shorter, but we don't want to think about it. I know I don't. So I'm afraid I don't have an answer for you. I know the loss of a dog. Though I was "absolutely sure" I would never again have another dog, I have one now (well, two, including my mom's dog) and I don't want to think about the time when one of them will have to leave me.

My thoughts and prayers are with you. We care.