In the span of less than four years, both of my parents died at in-patient hospices. It's hard to loose them in your early 40's because as others have said, "am noone's daughter anymore". The strange part is my father who died first, of melanoma, was my hero. The grief for dad was all encompassing but even though mom & I didnt get along very well, this grief is even harder? When a bill from one her dr visits a year & a half ago arrived the other day, the grief came up fresh again. Then I realized tomorrow it is one year since we admitted her to the hospital. She died a month later after enduring amputation of her diabetic leg but complications from her chest tube took her. Anyways, if it hadnt been for Hospice of the Valley sending a newletter yesterday & leading me to this forum, I dont know, was ready to loose it! With my mom gone, I went a little nuts & some of you may relate to this, or for others, perhaps you will feel a little more sane. I quit my job of 18 years on a technicality. Moved myself away from AZ after 22 years, to Calif with my fiance, broke up with him & moved to New England all alone. Have heard of others loosing it for awhile but we will find our center again. Thank you for letting me tell my story.