Thank you so much for sharing your experience on this site. We have a lot in common! I lost my precious grandmother the day before my birthday, 2/25. I was okay for the first two weeks after the funeral, but now it is very painful. I have also had persistent nausea. I believe that my stomach was the most physically vulnerable spot, so the grief is sort of lurking there. I am probably not being helpful, but knowing that I am not alone is really comforting. The part you mentioned about your grandmother's unconditional love, mothering, cuddling, and encouraging is so familiar to me. I love my Mom, but my Grandmother knew how to love me back. I suffered from bipolar depression for years before my Mom had me committed to a hospital. My Grandmother brought me to her home a few days later. She protected me, nurtured me, cooked my favorite foods, and kept my Mom (her daughter) from being emotionally abusive to me. Her love healed me; it's been 15 years and I am a successful, loving human being because of her larger-than-life understanding of me. I felt as if I was on a different planet until I could be close to her. I can no longer hug her, but she will be in me always. Thank you for listening to me. I needed to say all this. Love, Divanita
