I am new to this forum, but have read many members reports of their experiences with the loss of a loved one. I lost my husband 7 months ago, after 62 years of marriage, a very long illness caring for him at home and in a nursing home with hospice care. My days were completely taken up with the details of his care while spending as much time with him as possible. Since his death, I am having a reaction I haven't read about anyone else experiencing, and would like to know if it is unusual. Almost immediately after his death, I was driven to keep busy with projects around the house, going thru family archives, papers, files, closets, drawers and family albums. I have this ever-present fear that I will run out of projects to do, and then I will panic or fall apart with the feeling of abandonment, being useless and unneeded. While I keep busy, the pain and grief feelings are somewhat under control, but I dread the time when I won't find any worthy things needed doing, ansd then his loss will overwhelm me. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Thanks for listening!
