RonnieLou

Gerigp, I lost my husband of 25 years 3 months ago....I understand how you feel. The best advice that I can give you is to not look too far into the future. You need to only get through 1 day at a time for now....After awhile you will be able to plan 2 or 3 days ahead....That is about all I have been able to do now....But you do have a reason to keep on living...you still have a purpose! I will be in prayer for you that God would carry you during this time and give you an inner peace that all is going to be ok.

I'm new to this site...and pretty used to "having it all together". I thought I could do this by myself, but the longer this goes, I see that I am wrong....and that it's ok to admit that you are hurting and weak....... My husband was a missionary and died of a heart attack on an airplane on his way to the Philippines in January of 2005, he was 44 years old...... I have 4 children that have been wonderful for me, but I too feel "lost"...We would have celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary on March 15. I never really realized how much of my identity I got from being joined to this man....I always thought I was pretty "independent", but now have realized how much I was "co-dependent" upon him. The best way to describe it is, that I feel "alone, "naked", "uncovered" and "exposed" for all the world to see....I'm not even sure who "I" am without "him"...I realize now that all my "likes" and "dislikes" had become his "likes" and "dislikes"...all my "goals" and "dreams" had become "his goals and dreams".....etc. I don't even know where to start to find "myself" again....However, I know that "In our weakness, God is made strong" so I am trusting that God will somehow enable each one of us to find our way and to come into our own purpose for being, turning our tragedies into victories.....God bless each of you on your journey to find happiness once again... REV. LARRY N. KEY Born 1960 Died 2005 www.childrenshungernetwork.org

I'm new to this site...and pretty used to "having it all together". I thought I could do this by myself, but the longer this goes, I see that I am wrong....and that it's ok to admit that you are hurting and weak....... My husband was a missionary and died of a heart attack on an airplane on his way to the Philippines in January of 2005, he was 44 years old...... I have 4 children that have been wonderful for me, but I too feel "lost"...We would have celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary on March 15. I never really realized how much of my identity I got from being joined to this man....I always thought I was pretty "independent", but now have realized how much I was "co-dependent" upon him. The best way to describe it is, that I feel "alone, "naked", "uncovered" and "exposed" for all the world to see....I'm not even sure who "I" am without "him"...I realize now that all my "likes" and "dislikes" had become his "likes" and "dislikes"...all my "goals" and "dreams" had become "his goals and dreams".....etc. I don't even know where to start to find "myself" again....However, I know that "In our weakness, God is made strong" so I am trusting that God will somehow enable each one of us to find our way and to come into our own purpose for being, turning our tragedies into victories.....God bless each of you on your journey to find happiness once again... REV. LARRY N. KEY Born 1960 Died 2005 www.childrenshungernetwork.org