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  1. In Sept of 2003 my uncle and his girlfriend went boating together. My uncle jumped in the lake to cool off and came up struggling. His girlfriend and the other couple with them, thought he was playing around. He went under again and never came back up. A dive team searched for him in the water. He resurfaced three days later. After that, my grandfather kind of just started aging and began losing his memory. He was diagnosed with the beginning stages of Alzheimer's. He struggled with it for all these years and this morning around 5 A.M. God took my grandfather home to rest. I'm glad he isn't suffering anymore, but I am really sad that he is gone. I feel bad for my grandmother, they would have been married 51 years this Christmas. He was a wonderful man and amazing grandfather. I love him and am going to miss him so much! Please keep my grandmother and family in prayer! Thanks so much! Katie
  2. This is a song I recently heard by Carrie Underwood. If you get the chance you should listen to it. You can find it on youtube or on any country radio station. The ending touched me very much. Here is the lyrics. Temporary Home Carrie Underwood From her CD Play On Little boy, 6 years old A little too used to bein' alone Another new mom and dad, another school Another house that'll never be home When people ask him how he likes this place He looks up and says with a smile upon his face "This is my temporary home It's not where I belong Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going I'm not afraid because I know this is my Temporary Home." Young mom on her own She needs a little help got nowhere to go She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out Because a half-way house will never be a home At night she whispers to her baby girl Someday we'll find a place here in this world "This is our temporary home It's not where we belong Windows and rooms that we're passin' through This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going I'm not afraid because I know this is our Temporary Home." Old man, hospital bed The room is filled with people he loves And he whispers don't cry for me I'll see you all someday He looks up and says "I can see God's face" "This is my temporary Home It's not where I belong Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through This was just a stop,on the way To where I'm going I'm not afraid because I know this was My temporary home." This is our temporary home
  3. I heard this song and It's pretty good.. hope you guys like it. In this world I walk alone With no place to call my home But there's one who holds my hand The rugged road through barren lands The way is dark the road is steep But He's become my eyes to see The strength to climb my griefs to bear The Savior lives inside me there In You're love I find release A haven from my unbelief Take my life and let me be A living prayer my God to Thee (Take my life and let me be a living prayer my God to Thee) In these trials of life I find Another voice inside my mind He comforts me and bids me live Inside the love the Father gives
  4. I don't know if anyone likes Mariah Carey but I heard this song today and came here immediately to post it. It is one of the greatest songs I've ever heard and touched me deeply. If you want to hear the song check it out on youtube or somewhere. Here are the lyrics.. you can decide if you want to hear it. It's Mariah Carey - Bye Bye This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye As a child there were them times I didn't get it but you kept me in line I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes It's something more than saying "I miss you" But when we talked too All them grown folk things Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show because You loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today face to face [Chorus:] I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on like "I wish I could talk to you for awhile" Miss you but i try not cry As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place Still I'll give the world to see your face And I'm right here next to you But It's like you gone too soon No the hardest thing to do is say bye bye (Bye Bye bye bye bye [3x]) Bye bye And you never got the chance to see how good I've done And you never got to see me back at number one I wish that you were here to celebrate together I wish that we could spend the holidays together I remember when you used to tuck me in at night With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight I thought you were so strong That you can make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever [Chorus] (bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x]) Bye bye This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
  5. I too know how you feel but in a different way. I was born on my grandfathers birthday. My step-grandmother was in the hospital soon after I was born. My mom went to visit her and he asked my mom "how is the baby? when was it born?" She told him that it was a girl and she was born on his birthday. From then on we had an inseparable bond. I can not tell you how many birthday memories I have of me and my grandfather. We celebrated our birthdays together every year. One year we went to Denny's back when they gave you free dinner on your birthday. They didn't believe we shared the same birthday so I didn't get free dinner and I was about four years old at the time. What a pile of crock that was. Anyway my grandfather passed away in 2003. Ever since then I've had the hardest time celebrating my birthday. Every year I try to make the morning about him and I by going to his favorite place to get coffee (McDonalds) and having breakfast. I then TRY to focus on me the rest of the day but I never fully feel happy on my birthday. I always think about how he should still be here celebrating with me each year. I guess my way of coping is by remembering all the fun times we had each year when our birthday comes around. I love and miss my grandfather very much. My birthday will never be the same. I'll just keep growing older with him here in spirit.
  6. I wrote a new song. I was going to race yesterday but due to unfortunate events I was not able to. My 16 year old neighbor has been in the hospital. She has been battling Hodgkins Lymphoma and recently had hip surgery in hopes of not having to have a full hip replacement. Due to her being in the hospital her mom who is like my other mom wasn't able to go to the race either and she had our shirts and numbers. Either way I'm going to try again next year and in an effort to show I care about the race I wrote this song. If you are a member and lost one of your relatives to Breast Cancer I hope this song helps you. Pray for those fighting, those who won the fight and those who lost the fight. Thanks guys. Race for the Cure Chilly October morning always on a Sunday get ready to go it's time to race.. drive to the race site meet some new friends some have lost the fight others won't let it end Race for the Cure don't give up the fight one things for sure it just feels right come save a life its worth fighting for come and have some fun Race for the Cure Walk a single mile or maybe five its all worth while you'll feel alive Race for yourself and your loved ones those who are fighting and those who've won.. Race for the Cure don't give up the fight one things for sure it just feels right come save a life its worth fighting for come and have some fun Race for the Cure For your mother for your sister for your daughter for yourself!! Race for the Cure don't give up the fight one things for sure it just feels right come save a life its worth fighting for come and have some fun Race for the Cure we'll save some lives it's worth fighting for we'll have some fun at Race for the Cure..
  7. I heard this song while watching ER. I had to find out what it was and what the words were because just listening to the song brought me to tears. You have to go and listen to it on youtube because it is just breath taking. All alone I didn't like the feeling All alone I sat and cried All alone I had to find some meaning In the center of the pain I felt inside All alone I came into this world All alone I will someday die Solid stone is just sand and water, baby Sand and water, and a million years gone by I will see you in the light of a thousand suns I will hear you in the sound of the waves I will know you when I come, as we all will come Through the doors beyond the grave All alone I heal this heart of sorrow All alone I raise this child Flesh and bone, he's just Bursting towards tomorrow And his laughter fills my world and wears your smile I will see you in the light of a thousand suns I will hear you in the sound of the waves I will know you when I come, as we all will come Through the doors beyond the grave All alone I came into this world All alone I will someday die Solid stone is just sand and water, baby Sand and water and a million years gone by
  8. Hello friends, Some or most of you probably have read my first post. If not I'm babybrat and this is a short version of my story. Since 1999, I've lost a cousin, two step grandmas, maternal grandma and grandpa, great grandma and three uncles. I've endured a lot in such a short time. I feel like I've lost so much but really I've gained so much. I've gained knowledge about Christ our Lord, I've gained belief and faith and most importantly I've gained love. One evening, after my maternal grandma passed away, I was talking with my aunt who lives in another state. She asked me how I could be so strong and not angry with God for taking grandma away from us. These are the words I told her and the words that I hope will help many of you. I told my aunt, "In the times when I was sad, hurt or angry, God was there. He was not there to bring me down, but to lift me up. I couldn't blame him because I know death is apart of life. All I know is that when I needed him he was there walking next to me and when I couldn't walk anymore he was carrying me. It's just like the footprints poem." Needless to say she took my words in awe and completely understood why I wasn't angry. I truthfully believe that I helped her in some way and I hope this helps someone out there as well. If you are someone who just doesn't have the faith then thats okay, but if you do have faith then this just might be the help you were looking for. Hope this helps someone out there.. Love, Katie
  9. For all you Christians.. this one goes out to you.. this is for those you have lost someone and has not yet given up their faith.. or just for those with faith who need some lifting.. I hope you guys like it.. feedback is appreciated. Down, come on, get down get down, get on your knees get down, get down, yeah for you are all I need. Pray, come on, lets pray get down, get on your knees get down, get down, yeah for you are all I need. For you are my God and you lift me up you are my strength you fill my cup oh oh So I will get down on my knees Oh Lord You're all I need. Live, come on, lets live get down, get on your knees get down, get down, yeah For you are all I need. Love, come on, give love get down, get on your knees get down, get down, yeah For you are all I need. For you are my God and you lift me up you are my strength you fill my cup oh oh So I will get down on my knees Oh Lord You're all I need. I'll get down On my knees show your love to me......... For you are my God and you lift me up you are my strength you fill my cup oh oh So I will get down on my knees Oh Lord, You're all I need. Oh Lord, You're all I need.
  10. Circle of Life - Katie Truax Walking, talking, crawling, singing, one foot in front of the other sister, daddy, uncle, aunt mommy, cousin, brother daughter, son, husband and wife we're all part of the circle of life Living in a circle give our daily bread never knowing just whats lies ahead. Living in a circle never wonder why we're walking in this circle we call life. Hugs, kisses, nods, wishes hellos and goodbye there's a time to be born and then a time to die death stabs you like a knife but thats part of the circle of life Living in a circle give our daily bread never knowing just whats lies ahead. Living in a circle never wonder why we're walking in this circle we call life. Yeah we're living in a circle we give our daily bread we never know just what lies ahead We're living in a circle We'll always wonder why we're living in this circle we call life.
  11. I too have had dreams of my grandma. It's weird because in most of them she was there but she didn't say or do anything. So even though she was there you could tell she really wasn't there. I remember one dream we were at her house and she lived on a lake.. well my brother had pushed me in and I was so mad so I went and told my grandma and she didn't say anything to me or do anything like get me a towel. I thought how weird is it that she's not doing anything. My guess is she wanted to be there but obviously she couldn't be. She was there in spirit like she always will be. Please feel free to message me if you ever want to talk.. I'm a pretty good listener. Bless you.. Katie
  12. Hello Chris's niece... I too have lost an uncle.. I've actually lost quite a bit more than just an uncle. I've lost both my maternal grandparents, a great grandmother, a step grandmother, a cousin, and three uncles. I've been to heck and back. The one uncle in particular was my dads brother. He passed away in a drowning incident in 2004. He had gone boating with his girlfriend and another couple. In the spur of the moment he decided to cool off so he took his glasses and hat off and jumped into the lake. He then came up struggling and they thought he was messing around. He went back down again and never came back up. His girlfriend jumped in to look for him but she couldn't find him. All we could do is wait. His body showed up three days later and my dad had to go down and identify him. It was very tough because he was loved by so many. He had three children.. two who barely knew him and one that never will. I've always felt like I had to deal with death on my own but then I realized that I wasn't alone. I realized that there was someone walking next to me. And in hard times when I just couldn't walk anymore he carried me. I kept my faith with the lord and he has kept my strong throughout all my life. Just keep hanging in there. I know how hard it is to lose someone you love. I have many posts on here so feel free to look around. I'm babybrat07 in case you ever want to shoot me an email to talk. I'm a pretty good listener. Bless you! Katie
  13. Hi Netten, I lost my grandmother in May of 2002. We were really close. She lived far away from me so I didn't get to see her all the time like my cousins did. When she passed away I felt sad and angry. I felt angry because all my cousins had stories about time they shared with grandma. They talked about fun stuff and being at her house. It hurt because I couldn't measure up to the time they got with her. I felt angry because they had more time with her then I did. But I realized that the time I did have with her was special because none of the other cousins had what I had. I feel blessed everyday of my life to have had the grandmother that I had. I think about her all the time. I see t.v. shows or movies that remind me of her. I try to think about the good stuff. The hardest part is everyone saw her before the morphine took her away. I was the only person that didn't make it to see her. All my cousins and my aunts and uncles saw her before she died. I made it to her house five minutes to late. I later decided that she had waited for me, she knew I was coming but she didn't want me to see her go so she went just before I arrived. Whenever we'd go visit she'd meet us at the porch door. When we'd leave to go home she'd stand at the porch door and wave until she couldn't see us anymore. That day I knew that she was at the door with the lord and she was waving until she couldn't see us anymore. The lord has always been on my side and he will always continue to be on my side. You just have to know when to let him in. I hope I've helped you. God Bless! Katie
  14. Thanks, I wrote this song in like 15 minutes. I thought it was pretty good myself. I'm pretty talented when it comes to writing..
  15. This goes out to any girl/woman who has lost a parent or loved one.. I just wrote it out of the blue.. I hope you all like it. Christmas Angel Deck the halls with boughs of holly Tis' the season to be jolly, It's the time of year hugs, laughter and cheer. Time to decorate the tree lots of fun for you and me, add the tinsel and the light oh what a beautiful sight. Christmas Just isn't the same There's no stocking with your name I wish you were here with me I wish that I could see My Christmas Angel Silent Night, Holy Night What a glorious sight, If only you could see our lovely Christmas tree. Decorate the house with lights Makes the world seem so bright, Hark the Herald Angels Sing A song for you and me. Christmas just isn't the same There's no stocking with your name I wish you were here with me I wish that I could see My Christmas Angel Joy to the world From your little girl who misses you Oh how I do...... I know it will never be the same Heaven has a stocking with your name You can't be here with me But I'll always believe My Chistmas Angel Oh, Oh, Oh Yeah Yeah Ooooooh Ooh Christmas Angel
  16. This is a song that is sung by Beverly Mitchell.. some of you may know her from 7th Heaven as Lucy Camden. She wrote this song after her friend was killed in a car accident.. I hope you guys like it. Have you ever met an angel Whose smile is like the sun Whose laugh is like a melody that reaches everyone Have you ever hugged an angel Swept up in their embrace And swear there’s nothing in this world that makes you feel that day Have you ever really loved an angel Once you have you’ll never be the same again Have you ever had to let go of an angel Say goodbye, let ‘um fly, my angel…my best friend Have you felt the strength of an angel When you needed it the most Lifted by those gentle wings You know you’re not alone Every now and then I feel the peace inside Wherever life may take me, I’m guided by that light Have you ever really loved an angel Once you have you’ll never be the same again Have you ever had to let go of an angel Say goodbye, let ‘um fly, my angel…my best friend I have really loved an angel I will never be the same again As I have had to let go of my angel Say goodbye, let um fly, my angel…my best friend Lyrics > Beverley Mitchell Lyrics > Beverley Mitchell Angel Lyrics http://youtube.com/watch?v=gSCHJlC77Rw Here is a link to her video on youtube if anyone would like to hear the song.
  17. I too know how this goes. For me however I hear it from people that don't know me and what I've been through. I lost a cousin who comitted suicide when he was fourteen. It was really hard for me because we were the same age. I remember a short time after I was at the public pool and one of the staff members was on top of the building and this boy kept yelling jump jump jump. I wanted to hurt him so bad because it was killing me inside. Another thing that upset me was.. (I am a student teacher learning how to be a teacher and I teach under a mentor) anyhow my mentor teacher's brother came and brought her lunch and he is a firefighter and he was talking about having to run to different schools on suicide attempts and it made me want to break down and cry. I however am stronger than that and kept cool. I know how hard it is, I really do.
  18. Standing in the dark standing all alone feeling like theres nothing left for me but then a feeling comes and I know he's watching. So I walk on home in the dark midst of night maybe there is something left for me and the feeling comes again and I know he's there. God is good God is great God is there everyday. God is love God is light God is there everynight God is good. Standing in my doorway I drop down on my knees tell me there is something left for me and I know he's there in the warmth of me oooh oooh oooh God is good God is great God is there everyday. God is truth God is light God is there everynight. oooh oooh oooh he lights the way. I lay down in my bed and close my sleepy eyes tomorrow soon will be there for me and I know he's there in my dreams he cares. Oh I know.. Oh I know.. God is there
  19. When I was small and little I'd sit up on his knee He'd whisper in my ear and tell me he loved me. then he'd whisper nothings and make me giggle loud if he was here now he'd be very proud. We have a lot in common from our smile to our eyes when we were together the world always came to life. We also shared our birthday each and every year And even though he's gone it's still something we share. I remember every year he'd come to be with me our birthday we would share my birthday pal and me. Now he's gone away The good Lord took him home I've missed him every day since he's been gone. Even though he's gone I think about the days when we had so much fun on all our birthdays We'll continue to share our very special day it comes but once a year his and my birthday.
  20. I'm dying inside with nowhere to hide, My pain is quite real can't you see how I feel? Sticks and stones leave me alone, Don't call me names Can't you see my pain? Chorus: Don't pick on me just let me be, Don't push me down and bully me around. You make me weep I cry myself to sleep, Why can't you tell this hurts me like hell. I'm dying inside with nowhere to hide, my self-esteem is low I have nowhere to go. Sticks and stones leave me alone, I'm hurting inside what happened to my pride? Chorus: Don't pick on me just let me be, Don't push me down and bully me around. You make me weep I cry myself to sleep, Why can't you tell this hurts me like hell. You made me say that I was gay, But how could I defy that it was just a lie. Who do you think you are you bullied me to far, It killed me inside So I took my life. Chorus: Now you can't pick on me You will have to let me be, You can't push me down And bully me around. You made me weep But I don't cry myself to sleep, Why couldn't you tell you hurt me like hell. Why couldn't you tell that you were hurting me like hell......
  21. My Grandma I remember it like it was yesterday I called you a week before the day. You said "Katie, I'm going to die." I sat alone and started to cry. I waited until the day before to call you again once more. I knew you would soon die it was my turn to say goodbye. Uncle Mark picked up that day Morphine made you fade away. He told me to talk to you listening was all you could do. I said, "Grandma I love you you know that all of us do. we all want you to know that it's ok if you let go." I flew out the very next day I got there five minutes too late. I ran inside and started to cry for I never got to say goodbye. I will always think about that day when I got there just a little too late. Your death I guess wasn't for me to see but I'll always know, you waited for me.
  22. That is really good. I really really like that. You are a wonderful writer keep up the good work.
  23. Hi emolvr, You've come to the right place. I lost my grandpa almost three years ago. He was very important to me because I shared my birthday with him. When he passed away I felt like I had lost one of my best friends. My dad left when I was younger too. My mom raised my brother and I by herself. My grandpa came every year for our birthday and sometimes in the summer too. I always loved when he came to visit. I never pictured my life without him in it. I can't say it gets easier but with time you will heal. I am a christian and I believe that God walks with us when we are need of him. I don't know if you have a religion but if you do it's always an idea to pray and talk with God, if not him than a close friend or someone you can confide in. If you need anything feel free to talk with me. I am a great listener. BabyBrat07
  24. My Grandma I remember it like it was yesterday I called you a week before the day. You said "Katie, I'm going to die." I sat alone and started to cry. I waited until the day before to call you again once more. I knew that you would soon die it was my turn to say goodbye. Uncle Mark picked up that day Morphine made you fade away. He told me to talk to you listening was all you could do. I said, "Grandma I love you you know that all of us do. we all want you to know that it's ok if you let go." I flew out the very next day I got there five minutes to late. I ran inside and started to cry for I never got to say goodbye. I will always think about that day when I got there just a little too late. Your death I guess wasn't for me to see but I'll always know, you waited for me.
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