I am so lost. My mother-in-law died a week ago. I loved her so much. She was wonderful with my childred (I have four) and she raised a wonderful son. I am grateful to her for all she added to my life. For the last decade I spent time with her nearly every day. I looked forward to seeing her after taking my children to school, enjoying a cup of coffee and her company. We seldom had conversations about anything beyond the family. She offered me advice when I asked for it but never butted in or criticized. I miss her so much. Her death started nearly a year ago. She was diagonosed with lung cancer. She endured radiation, chemotherapy and surgery. She was in and out of the hospital even after the cancer was gone with recurrent bouts of pneumonia. In the end she was so tierd of being sick and did not want to fight any more. I knew all of this but was so unprepared for her passing. I was not and am still not ready to let go. I cry a lot. I get angry at my husband and children. I think worst of all is I can't seem to accept comfort from anyone. I do not know what to do. How do I go on? How can I help my children accept the loss of their grandomother when I can't? Any advice or help will be appreciated. Thank you, Paddington in Portland, OR
