June 20th 2005 . My fiance and I were having some tough times. he was a recovered heroine addict for three years. He had recently went to court to pay some traffic tickets and they put him in jail for that. Consequently he was kicked out of our nursing program and had to rejoin on the 6 of july, 2 days from now. He has a 3 year old son and on sunday we were bringing his son back to phoenix and he told me he was thinking of using again. All the time i had known him he hated drugs, I should have recognized this. While I was at school that monday, i kept calling with no answer. I got home and opened his door to find him dead on the floor. I screamed and kissed him and call the police but I knew he had been dead for sometime by the smell of his body. I cant ever forget the coldness of his skin. He was my life. My best friend. We had so many plans and he accidently overdosed on heroine. After 3 years clean. Now everything seems empty and dull. Ive been reading the bible a lot but i know it wont bring him back to me. I will have his son this friday for a few days and i cant wait for that.....i miss him i need help all these photos were taken in the week of his death except the last one. I cant beleive today is a 2 week death date aniversary of my best friend and my lover. my future. Also i found out I might be pregnant. I hope I am although that may be very selfish to hope...
