I am really messed up and feel strange about writing on a chat board this way but I am not really a people person and don't have many friends. The ones I do have would not understand my pain..I had my dog about 4 years ...she was just a stray someone threw away one day that ended up where I live....for some reason I really fell in love with her and over a period of time she became my best friend and companion...I love her so very much...she was very friendly and laid back...would never bite or hurt anyone...about 2 months ago someone in my neighborhood started complaining to animal control that my dog was not chained up...after numerous threats from animal control I started chaining her up before I went to work because I was afraid animal control would take her if I did not...I came home Friday and found her dead...she had got tangled up in her chain and choked to death...what a terrible way to die...now I hurt so bad I just want to die...why I loved this little dog so much Idon't know...all I know is that I did and now she is gone...the pain is just more than I can stand...she was with me all the time and even slept in my bed...now all I have is emptiness and regret...I know if I handled things differently she would be alive today...I wonder if she knew just how much I loved her and now how I miss her...as crazy as it sounds I wonder if dogs go to heaven...and if I make it there will I ever see her again...I am just a very hurting and brokenhearted man ...I wonder if there is anything I can do to get rid of this terrible pain.. Sonny Brazoria, TX
