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MikeC

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  • Birthday 02/10/1951

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  • Date of Death
    June 25, 2008
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    Beckley, WV

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    West Virginia
  1. It has been quite a while since I posted here, although I do check in here from time to time. Most of the names I see now are not familiar to me, but I know we have much in common. I lost Janet, my wife of 29 years, in June 2008 (it was 17 months ago yesterday). I have gone through my year of “firsts” - wedding anniversary, Thanksgiving, Christmas, birthdays, Mother's Day – and while they were all difficult times, I did manage to get through them. Today I fixed Thanksgiving dinner for my 2 sons and me. We started with a toast – to Janet, to the fact that we are still a family, and that things are a lot better now than they were a year ago. I still miss Janet so much, but I no longer feel sad all the time. Memories of her are now more pleasant than saddening – I can smile and even laugh when I think of some of the joyful times we shared. Believe me, that wasn't the case this time last year! A year ago I was sure I would never reach this point, despite assurances that things would get better from folks here who had been on this journey to healing a lot longer than me. It has been a very gradual healing process. I don't claim to be “healed” and I doubt that I will ever “get over” this great loss, but I do see glimpses of hope and happiness where I once saw darkness and depression. I want to offer my wish that all of you find something to be thankful for today and hope that you see happier times in the months and years ahead. Mike
  2. It has been quite a while since I posted here, although like others I do come here to read what others have written. I rarely feel like I have anything useful to say. Today is a milestone for me: the first anniversary of my wife Janet's passing. It has certainly been a year of change and in many ways, growth, for me. I still miss her so very much, but the memories that were once so painful are less so now; in fact, they often evoke a smile instead of tears. I recently became involved in a new relationship with a sweet, caring woman who also happens to have the name Janet. She has 3 adult children and two 3-year-old granddaughters, with another grandchild on the way. I feel really comfortable with her and her family, and my 2 sons seem to like her a lot, too. I am hopeful that this relationship will be a lasting one. Anyway, the main thing I want to do is thank the folks here who gave me so much support when I really needed it. A few months ago I found it hard to believe that things would get better, despite assurances from several of the "old timers" here. But sure enough things have gotten better - I am healing from this great loss! I still have a long way to go, but I can definitely see progress. Thanks to you all again, and good luck on your journeys! Mike
  3. Dear Kim, You are in my thoughts today, too. Hang in there. Mike
  4. Kath, What a beautiful, touching poem - thank you for writing it. Mike
  5. Wendy, I am getting here a little late, but I want you to know my thoughts are with you as you pass the 2 year mark. May you find peace and happiness, my dear friend. Mike
  6. Thanks again, all of you, for the birthday wishes. I had a very good birthday yesterday - including a surprise party at a local music store where we have a weekly jam session. We played music until 1:00 this morning, so I am pretty well spent today. Mike P.S. Kay, you should come sing at the weekly jam. Marsha, if I start counting birthdays backward now it will still be a long, long time before I am not an old geezer!
  7. I went to a live music performance on Sunday and saw an Irish duo called The Guggenheim Grotto. After the concert I bought their new cd entitled "Happy the Man" which includes the following song. I don't have a link to the music, but I got these lyrics from their web site. This song is anything but uplifting - in fact I cried when I heard it on the cd. It describes how I feel exactly. Heaven Has A Heart heroes get forgotten good men overthrown I found true love then I lost my love so I’ll carry out my days alone but I won’t parade my sorrows we all have our own tunes to moan but here is a truth that everyone must swallow heaven has a heart of stone build your castles with diamonds and marble and steel and you get knocked down live your life with compassion and humility still you get knocked down I’m not saying ‘don’t fall in love... don’t reach for the stars...’ but everyone should know that heaven has a heart of stone and you can want it with every fibre of your being but how it plays out in the end is never sure my baby got so thin I didn’t know her then she slipped away for evermore and what’s another grain of sorrow upon the world with nations of people reduced to ashes and bone? still, what kind of heaven gives you something then takes it from you? a heaven with a heart of stone build your castles with diamonds and marble and steel and you get knocked down live your life with compassion and humility still you get knocked down I’m not saying ‘don’t fall in love... don’t reach for the stars...’ but everyone should know if heaven has a heart then heaven has a heart of stone Mike
  8. Dawn, I am glad you have had a good day today. Mine has been okay, as well. So, let me add my HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, too! Mike
  9. Shelley, I hope you have had a great birthday today! Mike
  10. Marty, I want to wish you a special happy birthday and echo what everybody else has said. If it were not for this place I don't know what I would have done. The good people here (you included!) have helped me get through some hard times. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything! Mike
  11. Gosh, I am truly overwhelmed. Thank you all for the warm wishes and for all the help you've given me since I found this special place. Happy Birthday to you, too, Shelley. It looks like a bunch of us are celebrating today! All my love to you guys... Mike
  12. Welcome, Annie I am sorry for the loss of your husband. You are not bringing anybody down by posting here - you are among friends who understand what you are going through. I lost my wife about 7 1/2 months ago and I still cry almost every day, too. Take all the time you need and come here often - it has helped me a lot. Mike
  13. Mary Linda, Janet died just 4 days before our 29th wedding anniversary, so I was still very much in shock for that first one without her. Please know that you are in my thoughts on this difficult day. Mike
  14. Hi, Marsha I've been putting off settling Janet's estate for a month now. It just seems to symbolize the finality of her passing to me. I hope tomorrow does bring that brighter frame of mind to you. Mike
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