I am a widow at 35,... My husband died April 12, the day I was to bring him home from the hospital. He had a minor stroke and was in the hospital..recovering. He was only 49. He needed heart surgery so they gav him an angiogram..where they had to go thru his groin. An infecion developed..add to it the fact that the minor stroke he had..gave him sensory damage...which means he refused food during his 7 days in the hospital before his death, He had an awful infection, was on blood thinners, and had had no food for 7 days..he fell down in his room. The nurses put him back in his bed and 1 hour later he was brain dead, Our marriage was good but we had many "outside problems" we stuck things out..yet we took time for granted..we kept saying..after he got his child support done ect..we would be happy. Now he is gone. I feel regret..remorse.. People want to help me..want to be close to me..I just want to be alone. I am angry, ..I am not self destructive..rather I just need time - is this normal? The ones that are treating me with the most care and sincerity..I push away. I think the only thing I can feel some days Is regret...for what I didn't do/say. I miss him. This is so unfair...
