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Hi All, Again I just wanted to thank you All for your kindness and support as I went through this very difficult time with my beloved Chelsea... I can hardly believe it has been a week all ready since I felt her wonderful licks and her bark when someone came to the door... I feel sometimes that I so want to be all done here on earth but think how sad Chelsea would be if I were to leave here before my time... I know that she is being taken good care of till I see her again but it does not feel the void i have inside of me right now... Shelley

Hi All, I have been invited up to my brother's place for the long weekend but I do not know whether to go or not... You see this is where Chelsea used to live and I do not know if I can handle it or not... I do not want my brother to feel like I was just there to visit Chelsea the last few months so I feel I should go... But I do not know if I can???? Shelley I hope this does not sound CRAZY....

Hi All, Thank you All for all your kindness and prayers, Chelsea went the way she lived Happy and wagging her tail right till the end... I appreciate what everyone has done for me with all the wonderful posts... You are All truly amazing... Love to you all Shelley

Hi All, Boy I can hardly believe that it has been almost one full day since Chelsea has died... I am very, very angry right now and it is so very strange I think that I should be more sad but who knows right... Shelley

Thanks so much Marty for all you have done for me, especially how you helped me deal with Chelsea's death... I will keep remembering our good times together and she will always be in my heart for ever and ever... I will shed a tear but I will keep moving on till the moment I see her again... I have made a scrapbook of our times together and so I have her close to me... Shelley

Hi All, Just wanted to let you all know that Chelsea left this earth at 730am this morning in my sister in law's arms after eating her favorite food steak.. The vet came and my sister in law told me she went peacefully and my brother has dug a grave for her and she is going to have her favorite blanket with her... Thanks for all the prayers and kindness... Shelley

Hi All, I am home again and I have said my final good byes to my beloved dog and best friend in this world... it was so hard to see my brother dig her grave today, she is being wrapped in her favorite blanket which was actually a blanket from my bed when I was a little girl... My sister in law is given her steak for her final meal before the vet comes to do the needles... I can not believe she is going to be gone by this time tomorrow my poor little girl... I Love you Chelsea... Shelley

Hi All, Thanks to everyone who has kept Chelsea and myself in their prayers and for all your kindness... Please keep us in your prayers and know that Chelsea appreciates everyone here that has been nice to her mommy... shelley

Hi All, Just a quick update i am with chelsea and she is struggle some what today, I was told the vet wanted to put her down on friday but my sister in law would not let her till I saw her once more... She is on pain killers and this is her last full day on earth... when i leave her tonight to go back home it will be the last time I will see her and I am so scared i will forget what she looks like... I am so emotional and can barely make it through this last day with her ... my brother does not want her to realize anything is wrong and my sister in law is going to make her last meal a steak as she has done this for all her past fur loves... sorry got to go very sad right now... Shelley

I am sorry sorry for your lost and believe I know what you are going through, today is the last full day of my beloved dog Chelsea as she is being put to sleep tomorrow because she has cancer and is in pain... I am so very sorry that you are going through this and I will keep you in my prayers... Shelley

Thanks to everyone for their prayers and kindness, I have decided to go and see Chelsea one last time and so I will not have internet where I am but will post as soon as I arrive home again on Sunday... Thanks again so much you are all truly wonderful people... Shelley

Hi Marty, I am sorry but right now I am trying to find the courage to take the train to see Chelsea and that is all I can handle at this moment... I really do not want to see her but I made a promise to my brother I will see her one last time... I have so much pain right now and talking about it will not help right now... but I will promise I will see her after the weekend is over but for now i need to be alone to just get over it right now... Shelley

Hi Marty, you are right and Chelsea would not want me to feel bad about her dying... She would want me to finish this journey and to remember her memories and that she will be waiting with my parents till I meet her again... So I am going to finish this journey and even when it hurts so very much I will remember her kisses and her sweet little face... Thanks for being there for me especially now... I will pray for strength to finish my time on earth... I am still really in alot of pain but will keep pushing myself through it all.... shelley

HI ALL JUST LETTING YOU KNOW THAT I APPRECIATE ALL THE THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS BUT I HAVE DECIDED TO NOT SEE HER TOMORROW AND I AM NOT ATTENDING MY THERAPY SESSION EITHER ... I AM LOCKING MYSELF UP IN THE HOUSE AND NOT ANSWERING EMAILS, PHONE CALLS OR THE DOOR... SHELLEY

Hi Marty, Thanks I will read this, I just do not know if I can live without her... I lost my mom, I lost my dad, now it is Chelsea they were my backbone to survive all this... Now they will all be gone and what will happen to me I feel so alone and are not sure what I am still here for... Shelley

Hi All, Just to let you all know that Chelsea will be gone by Monday as she has Cancer and the vet wanted to put her asleep today but has allowed her to see me one last time and it will take place tomorrow... Keep me in your prayers... Shelley

Update Everyone, My sister in law that has Chelsea phoned my yesterday and told me that she was rushing chelsea to the vet because her back legs were both swollen alot and she was worried about what this might mean.... shelley

Hi All, I just got home after four days with my beloved Chelsea, boy it was so good to see her for that long... It was so hard to see her stumbling around the house though and everytime she needed to get up I had to lift her backend up so she could stand up on her own... I think she is okay but I feel that she is slowly slipping away from me and this will be so devasting to me when it happens... Shelley

Hi All, Just wanted you all to know that things went as well as it could have... I did get really upset when people started to talk about my dad and how great of a man he was... All I could do is walk away and I started to cry, I know they did not know about the abuse but is was really hard to deal with... I am so glad it is all over and hopefully I will not have to go through that again... Shelley

Hi All, Today I am attending a family reunion for my dad's side of the family, I feel so freaked out right now because I am still healing from the abuses he did to me and I do not know how I will be if they start talking about old memories and making him sound so good... I need to do this but do not know if I can... I have not seen any of these people since my parents died and even than I have not seen some of them longer than that... I just want the day to end right now and be finished... Shelley

Hi Marty, Thanks for that, I am so very excited about the whole thing I do not know if I can even sleep until the day I see her...Shelley

Hi All, Well I can not even imagine what will the day bring? First of all I have a session with a psychiatrist to get tested for ADD, than it is off the the audiologist to get a hearing test done and than last but not least it is the death anniversary of dad... My siblings are getting together to talk about the remains of my parents and what to do with them... Hopefully we decide to do something... Shelley

Hi All, I am going to see my beloved Chelsea for a whole four days starting this Sunday...How wonderful it will be to wake up and see her gentle face looking at me... How special will it be to pat her when I want to and to receive her friendly kisses... I will be able to feed her and just loved her to the fullest for four whole wonderful days... Thank you God for this chance to see her again... Shelley

Hi All, I was wondering if anyone else had to use sleeping pills to help them sleep after they lost their loved one... I had because I had so much trouble sleeping and it was the only way i knew I could sleep... Shelley

Hi All, Thanks for all your concerns and caring words, I am okay and just have so much inside of me right now and I am finding really hard to keep on the positive note... I am sad, and very emotional right now, I feel like this monster inside of me and he is trying so hard to come out... I am feeling like I am getting kicked inside of me... Shelley