I hope it gets easier, tomorrow is 4 months since my Mom died. Last night I was laying on the floor holding her cat and started to remember what she looked like that last day, it made me cry. Do you think animals know? I do not know I do talk to her cat often as I really do not have anyone else. Is that crazy? I have to have the cat fixed as I do not want any babies, so off to the vet we went. I think I have spent more on this animal than any others... testing this and that, while waiting for the results of the feline lukemia I just sat there praying please god dont take her too. Thank God everything came back good, this cat is the last rememberance I have I do not even let her outside unless I am there. Anyways I pray it gets better and easier.