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14 hours ago, Tachi said:

I did some reading on working out and drew up a new regimen.

Best to do something you can keep up doing, not aim for something unattainable on a regular basis.  Consistency is the important thing.

Huskies are quiet, that's another thing I like about them.  Arlie "talked," which I miss terribly, but Kodie is very quiet, rarely barks, he spins when excited, it's really cute, he sort of squeaks sometimes when excited.  The hounds in the neighborhood are the worst, 13 dogs sounds like 26!  One of the German Shepherds across the street is horrible with his incessant barking in the middle of the night, etc.  Bad enough in the day, but who lets their dog bark all night and won't bring them inside or shut them up!  Very inconsiderate IMO!

You are right about caregiving.  I have to take my sister to town (130+ mile round trip) every week for six months now!  Not looking forward to it, the time gone from Kodie, the wear & tear on my car & expense involved.  I gave her Ridesource information after Bert died but she won't contact them, she puts off everything, would rather dump everything on me.

Do any of the local banks have a notary?  Sometimes Real Estate places have one too.  

Wish I did not have to go on the highway today (granddaughter's birthday celebration) as yesterday there was a horrid three car head-on that killed three people and three are in the hospital, one left critical, another heading to jail after this.  The highway was closed for hours, backed up ten miles, clear to & across our town.  I was lucky to get home from church.  It's very sobering.

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Agreed, people who have dogs need to attend to them. maybe it doesnt bother them, they get used to it? No excuse. 

Can we send you our warm weather? mid to upper 80s and no rain. looks like summer is on the way. Absolutely love the cool nights and temperate days. The house gets so stuffy and sticky in summer. 

Found a notary who will accept my testimony of who dad is. now just have to go over and understand the Trust. Two documents...one assigns his possessions to the Trust and the other establishes the Trust and his and my roles. IF that works out is a huge relief.

Kodie sounds cute lol. maybe you should get him a kiddie pool for the heat of summer. I have no idea if it gets that hot for you folks.

Sounds like sis just loves being taken care of. dad has gotten that way but I dont mind because him trying to arrange anything is a nightmare. She is very blessed to have you. At some point I wish for you a nice vacation of peace and quiet.

Notaries...we went to the one at dads bank because they know him there. She had no idea what was going on. The bank mgr, who knows dad, came over and sat in. that was rather improper. She has always treated me as if im trying to cheat dad. Every time I get the strangest looks from her. the two of them had no idea about the POAs or the DNR. They marked on my DNR form, never mark on someones form. They did the POAs and refused the DNR because she didnt see the doctor sign it. I talked to the State of Texas and they were amazed they didnt do it. The notary doesnt need to see the doctor sign it, just my dad. They assured me the doctors office would have a notary, none do. I asked the lady at the Texas Office to email me a letter of how to do the DNR and mailed a copy to the notary at the bank. 

We went to my bank. That one had no idea what she was doing. On the form she signs twice, once for watching dad and a second time that the form was correct. State of Texas says thats how its done. She even called a notary hotline and they told her dont sign it. 

The form I was using was a standard form from the Tx Dept of health website. Its filled out and notarised no problem many times a day. the lady at the health Dept was amazed no one had a clue. When dad was in the hospital i talked to his social worker and she was amazed the notaries didnt understand. Honestly, i dont know how people get these things done. the Bank Mgr at dads bank even snidely asked me what atty created the form. i told it its from the Tx State Dept of health. People who think you have to have an atty for everything are people who can afford them. many things can be done without one. Altogether we will be saving dad a couple thousand by doing the forms myself. 

I rather suspect trouble from dads bank manager after he passes and I try and settle his estate. My name is also on all his accounts and the deposit box. I asked the banker if when he passes they would pass to me TOD and they said yes. Tbh I dont know whats wrong with these people. Ive killed a career and running down my life savings and making sacrifices to be here and take care of my dad. It is my responsibility to make sure the estate will handle properly as his wishes dictate. I am setting it up to follow his wishes. I am an honest and honorable man, it irks me to be treated that way.

Sorry, that bank...

I asked on the Ft Worth reddit and found a notary about 30-40 minutes away. they will come to the house on a saturday when we're ready at no charge. Im guessing theyre a social worker by their reddit name. I just hope dad doesnt have a bad day or they wont do it. 

Im tired of the stress and worry. i know you must get that too. Would be nice to go fishin. just sit under a nice shady tree with a basket of snacks and drinks and relax.

Wow be careful indeed. People think the car is a toy and just zoom around, drink and drive. It can have tragic consequences. i find I stay at home as much as I can. 

Take good care of yourself and kodie. find peace where you can and relaxation.

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Jazzy's mom has a wading pool for Jazzy & Kodie to play in but so far he won't go in it.  

It was 80s & 90s here, now it's cold again, I had to build a fire this morning, I was hoping to be done with that!  Had to haul some wood up on the deck.

A lot has happened this week, my sister Peggy fell, she walked somewhere she never should have, she knows she can't be on uneven ground, let alone attempt cobblestones!  Ambulance came & checked her, she went home.  She broke her dentures and glasses.  She hasn't made an appt. for new dentures yet but her old denturist retired, she hasn't been in for 20 years.  She has an appt. for her eyes (out of town, everything is 50-70 miles away), I was to take her on the 16th but it may be out until her ribs heal.  I made some homemade soup & took to her.  Will take her my blender too if she comes home, but she called me 6:30 am yesterday to tell me she's calling an ambulance.  When I called the hospital last night they still hadn't admitted her but she has several broken ribs, at least her nose is okay.  Family/neighbors want me to take her in but my house isn't set up for that, she's a large woman, would make more than two of me, she wouldn't be able to use my bathrooms, her walker is huge, it's hard for me to lift even, she can't use a bathtub or my shower as it's too small/flimsy for her, and no bars, she needs a place set up for it, my carpet all needs replaced & I have no help moving things so I have rugs everywhere.  Since she fell my BP went up 70 points!  I'd been doing so well on it.  I do NOT want to have a stroke or heart attack!  Peggy is resistant and stubborn to the umpth degree!  She does NOT want to contact gov't to utilize whatever services are available and puts up smokescreens that don't exist.  I may have to call Senior and Disabled to find out what's available.  All of this is taking all my time and energy, I'm exhausted from this week.  I worked the church' garage sale the last two days and need to take my car in to get the oil changed (60+ miles away) and get groceries (it's been three weeks, I'm out of everything) and visit her in the hospital tomorrow.  Poor Kodie, I don't like leaving him this much.  He's such a sweetie, he keeps my sanity right now...and always.

I don't know where Peggy's will/documents are, where she keeps her files/financial information.  Even after bringing it up to her she still hasn't told me.  If she passes, it'll be a nightmare.  You are doing well to get all this will/notary stuff done and I applaud your efforts!  Your dad has no idea how lucky he is to have you!  Shows he raised one of you right!

12 hours ago, Tachi said:

Would be nice to go fishin. just sit under a nice shady tree with a basket of snacks and drinks and relax.

Yes, doesn't it!  It sounds pretty remote right now.  How I miss George!  He loved to go fishing, and even though I'm allergic (can't touch/breathe/eat them) I'd go with him and just sit with him quietly out in nature, I love it, so peaceful!

And just one week ago I was worried about driving on Memorial Day to my son's...what a week, it seems like a year since.  Peggy doesn't remember being diagnosed with dementia.  Of course not! 

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I called and it took me hours to get Peggy...she sounds like Stage IV dementia, it terrified me!  I called back and talked to the nurse, she has no one listed as contact.  The nurse said she thinks it's 1948.  She talks nonsense, can't reach for words, doesn't answer questions, it's crazy!  She was fine the day before.  I asked if she's on some Rx doing that and they said no, that sometimes if someone is early dementia and out of their surroundings, it can do this but it should go back to normal if she's back in her surroundings.  She has a caseworker and has seen doctors, I don't know what their plans are.
When I got home after getting my oil changed (60+ miles away) I noticed a pool of oil when I moved the car so checked, there is NO OIL!  No light came on, nothing!  I spent the next few hours trying to get someone to help me, they finally called, I gave them hell, they're supposed to have someone up here to tow it away as of 11 minutes ago...still waiting.  They need to check the engine, also why no lights came on, and get to the bottom of their service problems.  Also bring me a car.
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hang in there, I know its crazy, but hang on. Address one thing at a time and breath. That oilchange place is just amazingly bad. Wonder if they disengaged the sensor or something, then didnt tighten the bolt, maybe it fell out. 

Did they check peggy for an infection, maybe urinary tract? Is she any better? Sounds like they need to list someone as contact. She doesnt seem to be able to make decisions for herself. 

George sounds alot like my Great uncle too. Fishing and just sitting in nature is soothing for body and soul. 

We are low 90s now. Our cool temps and rain is gone probably for the summer. Heat index over 100. next week a bit cooler so hope to get the grass seed done. I dont do well in the heat anymore.

Poor Kodie doesnt know what he is missing. maybe he will learn to enjoy a cool dip. You're doing so much, get what rest you can and make sure to eat. peggy sounds like my dad. he doesnt know what or where anything is nor does he care. He STILL hasnt gotten last year's income tax return yet. his man filed this years and the IRS cashed his check but cant seem to process the return from last year. 

Sayin a prayer for you and Peggy, smooth transition and solving problems. I wish there was someone there to help you. Sounds like Peggy or you for her need to do some things she isnt ready for. Do you have her POA? that would help. 

Spending alot of time doing things for dad, like repairing his TP holder he broke and trying to get his docs office to see if they gave him antibiotics. Finding out he had bacteria in his urine and they want to take care of it. Just didnt bother to let us know. 

My dad has eaten tacos for decades. Mom got the shells and kits at the store. hard and crispy corn shells. last time I made tacos he commented he didnt like em because the shells were too crispy. So tonight I ordered delovery and got some good mexican food that was a sandwich on flatbread and one on a cornmeal flatbread and tasted like a taco. Chicken and one was brisket. i thought they were good, dad didnt. he opinioned that he wanted 'real' tacos and no one makes 'real' tacos anymore. I explained they do but he doesnt like em because he complained they were crispy. he doesnt like flour tortillas. never ever seen a soft corn tortilla and I explained this to him. he 'remembers' a soft corn tortilla taco or just has an idea they shouldnt be crispy and crunchy? I dont even try with this stuff anymore cause it doesnt exist except in his mind and I dont care to chase a ghost, because nothing will ever be good enough. I guess from now on theres no more trying new things to give him variety. Ill just get him his old standbys of Whataburger and Chick Fil A. 

Going to go watch a movie with dad. take good care of yourself, Hope the rest of the week looks up.

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14 hours ago, Tachi said:

Sounds like they need to list someone as contact.

They have me on file, she must have given them my info last time.  I have literally been bombarded with phone calls and emails! (family, friends, neighbors...all inquiring and telling me what I should do!)  Day 4 one told me I need to go clean out her fridge...it's not going to hurt anything this soon!  I get groceries every two weeks and rarely throw away food.  Last time it was three weeks before I got groceries as I was busy dealing with her.  Even then she wanted me to do stuff. 

That was the day of the car fiasco.  The dealership lied to me, said everything was fine, told me to come pick up my car, so it took me over four hours, rush hour traffic, shouldn't have taken over 2 1/2.  I think they were covering up.  My son said if it sucked air the bearings could go bad. I have five years left on my warranty, I should know by then. ;)  Can't go up against a big corp. like them.  This has been a week from hell.

Then dealing with my sister Polly, upset that I "didn't tell her"...I did, I reminded her it was in a group email for the siblings.  I know she read it because she remembered the doctor's name.  Julie thinks Polly has dementia starting, it looks that way.  Can't deal with her, she's the one that yells at me over the phone when she's stressed.  All I need is more family!

14 hours ago, Tachi said:

Did they check peggy for an infection, maybe urinary tract?

They have checked her for everything, I gave permission for them to give her an epidural for pain.  They said she's not capable of making decisions for herself and they're supposed to come up with a plan for her before she can be moved, she needs 24 hour care.  She has 6 broken ribs.  She's told everyone something different but I got that from the doctor.  It takes me hours to get through to her because she can't reach to answer the phone so it just rings, no matter how many times I tell them they have to take the phone TO her.  She does not want us to visit her.  A neighbor did visit her yesterday, haven't talked with her yet, she's very invasive/controlling, so not looking forward to more exchange with her.  (Refrigerator monitor).

She has no POA and isn't capable of making one now.  It's too late, the state will likely take over and take her home.  I need to get some clothes out for her and Bert's ashes for safekeeping.  I told Polly they can come get family heirlooms if they want, all I want to make sure of is Bert's ashes are okay.  I told her on the off-chance Peggy returns to a better mental state and is able to return home with a caregiver, they can bring her "treasures" back. 

It's a mess.  I intend to make my son POA and put him on my bank account before I get like this!  All I know to do is prepare and take as good care of myself as I can.  None of us can be assured we won't get dementia someday, all we can do is help the odds the best we can.  Never have I seen someone go from 0-100 so quickly!  The nurse said it's trauma-induced escalation.  She was diagnosed four years ago but she had it years before that but she was semi-functional until this last fall.

I just got a recipe for Keto Empanadas this morning but who knows if he'd like them.  I'm sorry it's such a struggle, it's like arguing with an inanimate object for all the further you get.  Very frustrating, I know!  Can't argue, just agree, then do whatever.  Good luck to you, I keep you & your situation in my prayers too. :wub:

Keto Ground Beef Empanadas


·         Dough:

·         1 1/2 cups mozzarella

·         3 oz cream cheese

·         1 1/4 cup almond flour

·         1 egg

·         Filling:

·         1 lb ground beef

·         1/2 cup chopped onion

·         1/4 cup chopped green olives (if desired)

·         1 tsp each: chile powder, cumin, smoked paprika

·         1 tbsp olive oil

·         1/3 cup salsa of choice


1.   Preheat oven to 425 degrees.

2.   In a pan over medium heat, cook onions in 1-2 tbsp olive oil until slightly softened. Add in ground beef and break up with a spatula. Season meat mixture with chile powder, cumin and smoked paprika. Cook until browned. Add in salsa of choice and olives if using. Set aside.

3.   While meat is cooking, add mozzarella and cream cheese to a bowl and microwave for one minute. Take out and stir well, then put back in the microwave for another minute. Stir well.

4.   Add egg to mozzarella and cream cheese mixture and mix well. Then add in the almond flour and combine well again.

5.   Roll the dough flat with a rolling pin or with a piece of plastic wrap on top and use a wine bottles. Once you’ve rolled it flat, about 1/4″ thick, use a bowl to cut circle shapes.

6.   For excess dough, form into a ball then roll out again and repeat the process until all the dough has been used.

7.   Lay on a lightly greased cooking sheet, parchment paper or a silicone baking mat.

8.   Place a two spoonfuls of meat mixture into each circle on one half and then fold the other half over. Make sure to press down firmly on the edges. You can also slightly roll the edges to make sure they’re together well or use a fork to gently push down the edges.

9.   Once you’ve made all the empanadas, cook at 425 degrees for 12 minutes until starting to turn golden brown.

4 net carbs




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How are ya holding up? Id hate being bombarded like that. Standing rule should be if people want to tell ya what to do they have to come help. never works like that. Tune em out.So how is your sister? Such a mess and so much falls on you. Prayers for you always. you need some peace in all this. I'm working on dads Trust and think I have it almost done. Then have a notary who says they will come over. They're also a social worker so kind of shy at having one in. I hope my dad doesnt have a bad day. He's been pretty good this week. mostly just trouble figuring out how remotes and phones work. 

Thanks for the recipe, going to the store in a few days and want to try it. I think im done ordering food in. Got KFC wings for dad last night and they were horrible. I make better.

Hope to have nice wildflower pics for next time. One bed did real well and the others arent growing so guessing they dont get enough sun. Morning glories are taking over their part of the yard. I may be bold and try some seed in pots even tho we are in the 90s daily. 

I have to wonder how early the seeds of elder diseases begin. I know I should have taken much better care of myself starting decades ago. people just dont understand. you can tell them but they wont listen. Ive read dementia isnt hereditary so hopefully it will pass you by. All we can do is what we can do. just take good care of yourself. i know that I can do better and I will.

how is kodie doing? Good you have such a sweet pup, I know it helps.

Oh, addition to my PB&J sandwich

I toast 7 grain bread

PB on one side and Hazelnut spread  on the other

drizzle honey, add jelly and some banana slices

it falls all over the place but I think im addicted.

take good care


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