Elleroo Posted August 29, 2018 Report Share Posted August 29, 2018 My husband died in a tragic accident at work. This happened back in March, 3 days after our 2 nd anniversary. He was in the burn unit for almost three weeks after fighting the toughest battle of his life. Between us we have 9 grown children . We were friends for 35 years before we became life partners . i had stopped dreaming before we got together. He I experienced life like I hadn't in many years. He is my whole life. So I found in the past few months I am watched at all times. Is she gonna break. Well yes I broke. At my age I never thought I could break at this age. I have tried so hard to focus on God and draw strength from him but having so much trouble finding my faith. Then I worry if I don't find my faith I will go to hell and I wont ever see him again. Sometimes my thoughts and feelings go all over the place. One thought flies to another . All the while being watched in my fish bowl. I know they are concerned for me but some of the comments made are very hurtful. So I am here writing my thoughts to try to get some understanding and expectations from family on time limit to my grief. this last week I have gotten several calls on their concern. I should be feeling better about it all by now. I do not. Watching Dr pull tubes out his body and watching his last breath will be forever in my head. He was the most amazing man any one could meet and know. What did I do that was so bad that God took him from me. I am so happy he isn't in pain but now I cant put words to describe the pain I feel everyday. Please help Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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