shebert56 Posted September 9, 2018 Report Share Posted September 9, 2018 Monday will mark one month that Stephen's soul took flight. It's been a tough weekend. And I'm feeling very alone. Although I truly know I'm not. It's one of those mornings where I just want to run and hide somewhere. I did get out for a half-mile walk. I need to do more of that. My neighbor and one or two other ladies walk every morning, so perhaps it's time I join them. Just for some company and conversation. I miss both of those things. Wishing everyone moments of peace today. ~Shirley 4 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gin Posted September 10, 2018 Report Share Posted September 10, 2018 Shirley,. Thinking of you tomorrow and wishing a little peace. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Widowedbysuicide Posted September 10, 2018 Report Share Posted September 10, 2018 Hugs to you. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
widow'15 Posted September 10, 2018 Report Share Posted September 10, 2018 Shirley: Sorry you have to go through this anniversary. I can remember the first time I took my dog out for a walk after my husband passed. It was a semi warm Spring day. I could see a few neighbors in their yards as I hesitantly left my driveway, and as I got to the intersection, a dear neighbor was driving her car around the corner. She stopped her car in the middle of the street and walked straight towards me and gave me the biggest hug ever. We wept for a few seconds. That was the first moment I knew how it felt to be with someone who truly knew my pain. You will be in my thoughts. Dee 3 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted September 10, 2018 Report Share Posted September 10, 2018 Shirley, Getting out and walking with your neighbors sounds a great idea! You'll be in my thoughts today, always glad to get through those milestones. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Widowedbysuicide Posted September 11, 2018 Report Share Posted September 11, 2018 Thinking of you today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shebert56 Posted September 11, 2018 Author Report Share Posted September 11, 2018 All, I made it through yesterday better than I could have imagined. And without any meds. I filled the day with positive and happy thoughts of Stephen. Many conversations with him for sure. No weeping either. I considered attending a prayer service the hospital chapel had invited me to, but I decided not to attend. Stephen would not hesitate to say if it will make you unhappy, don't do it. So I didn't, and I was at great peace with that decision. A day at a time. Hugs, Shirley 3 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Widowedbysuicide Posted September 11, 2018 Report Share Posted September 11, 2018 I'm so glad you found what worked for you yesterday Shirley. Many times it is the anxiety about the event or occasion that causes me the most difficulty. 1 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted September 12, 2018 Report Share Posted September 12, 2018 16 hours ago, shebert56 said: All, I made it through yesterday better than I could have imagined. And without any meds. I filled the day with positive and happy thoughts of Stephen. Many conversations with him for sure. No weeping either. I considered attending a prayer service the hospital chapel had invited me to, but I decided not to attend. Stephen would not hesitate to say if it will make you unhappy, don't do it. So I didn't, and I was at great peace with that decision. A day at a time. Hugs, Shirley So glad to hear it! I didn't attend the hospital service either because they had it a full year later, seemed rather anticlimatic by then, plus it would have meant a 100 mile round trip in the dark and I had enough commuting for work. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Marie Lee Posted October 4, 2018 Report Share Posted October 4, 2018 Hope you are doing well Shirley Everyone hugs.. Marie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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