Lexy Starling Posted November 1, 2018 Report Share Posted November 1, 2018 It’s been almost a month since my 46 year old mom was taken from my brother and I and I still feel as if it just happened. This is my first time dealing with grief and it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through.. I’ve returned to work and I’ve sought help with a grief counselor.. standing behind a chair all day working on clients, I’ve been able to talk about her and what happened to most of them, all day, every day and I can hold it together. It’s in the mornings and at nights where I feel Like I can No longer hold it together anymore and I fall apart. It’s only been a month, I know And it’s going to take time for me to heal. But how much time does some usually need? And if I get to a good place in a few months to come, will I feel regret for no longer mourning my mother. That’s how I feel now if I remotely laugh at a joke or let out a snort at something funny. I feel remorse because I am grieving and my mother was just taken from me. My emotions are all over the place. I never know how I’m going to feel when I wake up in the mornings. Most of the time I just feel numb and sad. If that’s even possible. It’s so hard to find that motivation to even get out of bed in the mornings, but I do. Mostly because If I’m not working, the bills are still going to continue coming and i don’t need the added stress of not be able to pay them. I’m sad and depressed and I know this is all part of the healing process but I do feel like this pain will never go away. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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