ArM48 Posted February 6, 2019 Report Share Posted February 6, 2019 I found this site back in December when I lost my beloved soulmate pet, Greenbean. Since his death my life had crumbled before my eyes. The county condemned my home that my family has owned for 70 years because of flooding issues that were brought on entirely by the county. I have 3 weeks to move out. I lost a friend of mine. I could no longer function and I left my job of 9 years and I withdrew from my classes at UMUC. To make matters worse, I have been keeping a secret from really everyone in my life except for my ex. In August I found out I was pregnant. He and I had broken up but when I told him he wanted to work on things with us. Not long after the his father began aggressively abusing alcohol. He had prior health issues but did not have much of a past with alcohol, let alone any issue with it. His health very quickly plummeted and soon my ex was in and out of the hospital constantly, watching over his father. But the moment he would be released, he would go home and drink an entire handle of rum and somehow in less than 4 months, his body gave up on him completely and he passed away last Sunday. My ex did absolutely everything he could to save his father and his last days with him were brutal and tragic. Since then, my ex has completely cut me off. He will not respond to any of my messages and I am sitting here completely in the dark over what to do about this baby that is growing bigger every single day. I understand how traumatic his father's death has been, and it's only been a little over a week, but the last time he actually did reply to me was to say, "I can't possibly give you any answers right now about anything between us in the future and you can't expect me to" after I had frantically asked him about us and the baby. I know he needs his space but I am carrying his child and he knows everything else that has happened with me and he knows that I am completely alone in this. He is just blatantly ignoring me and I cannot understand how someone who was always as loyal and as kind as him, could leave me in the dark like this and completely abandon me. Every single moment of the day I am hysterical, distraught, overcome with anger, sadness, horror, ridiculous thoughts of him being with someone else, total agony. I do not know what to do and I cannot help myself to not message him because I am so terrified right now and I am so hurt over what he has done to me on top of everything else I was already enduring. My question is whether or not I'm overreacting. Am I expecting too much out of him right now? Do I have the right to be hurt and angry over not hearing from him at all? If I wasn't pregnant I would never expect him to be there for me in any capacity right now, but I am carrying his child and I am just in total disbelief. Should I give him time and space? As an insider, I am more hurt than I ever have been in my life, but I really want to know how it looks to an outsider. Thank you in advance. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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