K.D. Posted February 14, 2019 Report Share Posted February 14, 2019 I lost my best friend in the world less than 48 hours ago...the pain, the guilt, the sadness, the fear...it’s massive and crushing. Sadly I had to see him have a massive seizure before I took him to be freed from his pain, it’s just burned into my brain. I had my beautiful schnauzer Whiskey for 12 years, even before I was married and had a child. He was the center of my world. He was my entire family and reason to keep getting out of bed before I married. Even after developing the relationship with my husband and having a child, he was still the “anchor” I guess. I feel such horrible guilt whenever I try to hug my husband or cuddle my 18 month old. Like I’m betraying him. The feeling of betrayal is so strong with anything I do...like I’m moving on without him and he was just a blip on the screen of life. Like he will be forgotten. My husband is not an animal person and has not been able to relate nor is he in pain. If anything, he’s relieved not to have the dog he tolerated here anymore. Thank you so much for this site. Thank you. It has literally helped me make it another hour. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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