shubom Posted May 5, 2006 Report Share Posted May 5, 2006 I couldn’t believe what happened this morning. I’ve been staying with my aunt, since I lost my mom. My aunt’s daughter, my cousin, has been acting funny towards me lately. Partly because her mom and I get along really well, whereas they always argue and fight. I don't know. But this morning when I got up, I was talking to my aunt about mirrors. Well my cousin decided to make a comment suggesting that I should look in a mirror. At first, I thought she was joking, but then she proceeded to say something about my hair and my clothes, and a makeover or something. It was horrible. I finally said, “Look...do you not realize that my outward appearance reflects what I'm feeling on the inside? I just lost my mom, I’m sad and depressed, and I don’t feel like playing doll.” But of course, she just blew it off and continued to talk. I wanted to scream out, Of course I know I’m not dress to impress! But that’s my choice and I just don’t feel like it! I just can’t believe how people can be so shallow. I couldn’t stop crying. I felt like I was in grade school trying to fit in again! I feel like my mom was the only one who accepted me the way I was. Loved me unconditionally. And now that she's gone, I feel alone, like no one understands. So Now what?! Where do I go from here? If no one accepts me for who I am. How will I be in this world? Do I have to change my outward appearance, so my (shallow) relatives will accept me? I had a nice, peaceful home, where I could be who I was. And now.... I don’t! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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