mirage-grc Posted December 26, 2019 Report Share Posted December 26, 2019 my cat wasnt eating and i took him to a vet that was open not to my regular and we did an xray and a simple blood test that came out normal but the xray showed a lot of poop so we figured out that this was causing it he told me to w8 and all will be fine at home i was watching him in pain and suffer so i called my normal vet and asked what should i do he told me to give a mix of 5 ml parafin oli and 5 ml magnesia milk mixed together with a siringe in his mouth on the side i gave a very small dosage first day cuz i though he said 0.5 ml and he did poop a little but next morning was exactly as bad i w8ted till the aternoon and things where not going well he was getting worse so i called him again and he told me give a total of 10 ml 5+5 mixed and some water i asked if chicken soup was better he told me yes so i gave him some soup 5ml and after an hour the medicine after i saw him getting worse and worse so i took him to a hospital that was open with one person only working on xmas night we did a new xray and saw some liquid in his lungs we used some fluid injection through veins and he told me that in the morning they will do an antibiotics course but he died during mid day they called me later they told me it was from the fluids that got to his lungs when i gave him the medicine and soup i cant stop crying from yesterday i killed my friend if i had let things run their course he would have been fine this is killing me i cant stop screaming from the pain i feel i fall asleep for some moments and i wake up and feel the house empty i betraid his trust .... i just cant.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Athos Posted December 26, 2019 Report Share Posted December 26, 2019 You did not kill your cat. It sounds like the vet was wrong and liquids were a mistake. Chicken soup is usually salty--that may not help. and is okay for healthy cats in small amounts. Do not return to that vet. for any future cats. Find another one maybe from Yelp. That's how I found mine. We don't know whether cat would have died anyway soon afterward. It's a horrible feeling I know. Take it easy in bed for a while. Answers on Google may or may not be accurate. The Cornell Feline Health Center in N.Y. answers email all the time from cat owners. They are sympathetic. Try them, see what the vet there thinks. Sorry. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mirage-grc Posted December 26, 2019 Author Report Share Posted December 26, 2019 i have lost many pets in my life the pain i feel now is ubearable compare to any other time i just scream and cry he didnt want the medicine he was fighting me i should have not give it its like my cat knew he would not be able to swallow it he was the smartest cat i ever had he was cooperating with evrything he was always for the past 5 years next to me he could open windows and doors when i was closing my door and he wasnt in my room he was opening it and joining me in bed he was always cudly thus the name cudles i miss him so much i see him everywhere in my house i cant enter my room cuz i see his spots and i fall in to a crying screeming state i still cant eat or sleep i miss him so much so very much we had more things to give to each other i miss calling him and looking in to each others eyes with a mutual respect and trust.... i want him back so much... the past 2 weeks we where a bit apart cuz i was taking care 2 car striken kittens and i was keeping him away cuz i didnt know how would he react to them i was locking my door...i wasnt paying attention to him i only realized there was something wrong when i saw him not eating and in my panic i killed him wrong vet wrong treatment bad delivery of the treatment.... my little cudles...i killed u and i cant bare the pain u where my pillar of strength for so many years now u are gone... i am sorry this is becoming a public diery but this is what i want to speak i wanted to share my feelings with someone and this site is what i found this is the only thing i got to share me thank you for reading me....i hope for a world with no pain 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted December 27, 2019 Report Share Posted December 27, 2019 I am so sorry for your little Cuddles...and for you too. I lost my dog (cancer) over four months ago and it's been the hardest of all my pet losses, I've lost 32 dogs & cats in my life. I feel I will mourn him the rest of my life as I miss him and always will. He might have died even if things "ran their course", you were trying to help him and do what the vet said. They must have felt it was his best chance or they wouldn't have suggested it. Fluid in the lungs is hard. I'm so sorry, he knows you'd never mean to hurt him. There are no words to comfort you, I know, sometimes we just have to get through it, take one day at a time, hopefully time will lessen the pain. Try to focus on his being out of pain, I believe we'll get to be with them again, but I also know it's hard waiting meanwhile. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mirage-grc Posted December 27, 2019 Author Report Share Posted December 27, 2019 i really hope we dont just live in a universe that takes whatever it wants and dosnt care and all this pain of existence has a point i dont want to watch the video cuz i will start crying uncontrollably again i need to calm down because i will hurt my self in the end and there are many other animals and my sick parents i need to take care of but my heart really wants you to be right about meeting them again i need to apologize to so many i have failed.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted December 28, 2019 Report Share Posted December 28, 2019 Sometimes the tears help aid the grief processing. Of course, wait until you feel more ready. I'm sorry you have sick parents on top of losing your beloved cat. Been there, it's a lot to handle. I'm not convinced you've failed any but I know I can't talk you out of your guilt feelings. But we do need to learn to forgive ourselves and be understanding of ourselves, even as we would a friend...in other words treat ourselves as we would a friend, don't give ourselves any less. We deserve that. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mirage-grc Posted October 20, 2021 Author Report Share Posted October 20, 2021 its been 2 years and there are still times i cant stop crying thinking about him i had an other very painfull loss this year but cuddles will always be my fault that he died i really dont know if i will ever get over this... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted October 21, 2021 Report Share Posted October 21, 2021 Most animals can have plenty of liquid when they're sick, the vet instructed you, this was not your fault. Love yourself as your can loved you. Forgive yourself whatever you think you did. This is what I love about animals, they don't waste emotion hating/judging us, they are accepting, loving, appreciative. We stand to learn so much from them! You will be with him again and I can't wait to see him look you in the eyes, that will say it all, it will all be past. It's been over two years since I lost my Arlie (dog/cancer) and nearly two years since I lost 25 year old Kitty, I love and miss them both. What a great reunion day that will be! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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