Miss Ngu Posted June 5, 2020 Report Share Posted June 5, 2020 I had a few panic attacks that became scarily debilitating when my Dad passed away. My sister gave me a half of a 5mg xanax during one of these frightening episodes, and I could feel my body calm down, and help me continue with the daunting tasks of arranging for his funeral and cleaning out his apartment. I told my hospice grief counselor this, and she said that I should ask my doctor for a few xanax, instead of taking pills from my sister. So, I asked my doctor (who has been my doctor for a few years) for a few xanax. I told her it seems to help me to just know I have something to calm me down in my purse, even if I never actually take it – but I know I HAVE it on me. And, when I truly need it, I will only take a half of a pill, as I am not one who enjoys feeling “out of it”. My doctor’s whole energy toward me seemed to change once I asked. She told me just to want it in my purse is like an addiction. I was pretty put-off by this, and told her that my hospice counselor told me to ask for them in this situational basis. My doctor finally agreed to 2 pills, and told me that I would need to take a drug test on my follow-up visit in 6 months. Seemed extreme for 2 pills, and was she checking to see that there was none of the drug in my urine – or that it WAS in my urine? It was 2 pills for a potential panic attack. So, when I went for my 6 month visit, I was told to fill out a mental health form and take the pee test. Ok, now I really do feel like an addict, and worse than before – adding this to my grief, panic, and upset. I still have 1 ½ pills left (as I took a half of a pill when I was passing a kidney stone earlier in the year – and panicking), and wasn't asking for any more pills. I know people can get addicted, but if few pills are given, and the patient needs to come back for more, and is closely watched, what’s the deal? Isn’t this what a doctor is for? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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