nashreed Posted December 1, 2020 Report Share Posted December 1, 2020 I miss genuine laughing- wanting to make Annette laugh. I always tried to think of something funny to say, or a funny voice. We had our in-jokes and things only we would understand. Now it's a dead language. My family doesn't understand my sense of humour. I don't feel like even trying. I actually am pretty dirty if being myself, or with Annette. That person I was is dead. I've never been one to laugh at a TV show, not out loud at least (much too self conscious). I'm pretty sure I'll never laugh again. Sometimes I could make her laugh uncontrollably, until she said stop- I'm going to pee my pants. And of course, I would have to pile on. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted December 2, 2020 Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 It's hard to get together with other people you enjoy right now in COVID, I miss that. http://www.aliveinmemory.org/2013/05/30/learning-how-to-smile-again/ 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nashreed Posted December 2, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 I actually have a friend from school here in town that suggested getting together on my birthday next week. I've been to his house once this past summer, and he's a great guy- but he has a wife and a beautiful son and it just makes me depressed after. Because of COVID, and how California is now, I will probably bow out. It's difficult to deal with this loss with COVID fears and restrictions. I can't even go the mall to sit and get out of the house. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted December 2, 2020 Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 It wouldn't be so bad if you could meet, just the two of you, at a neutral place like a restaurant, but right now there's nothing we can go to unless outdoors and it's too cold for that. That and it can be cost-prohibitive. But it would be good to get together with someone, if only we all could! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nashreed Posted December 2, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 I'm just torn. It's actually work to get up the motivation to do anything. Is it worth it? I don't feel it's right to have any kind of happiness right now. I just don't know. My life ended when hers did, and what happens now doesn't really matter that much. The giant meteor could hit and I'd be cool with it. I'm a lot less stressed these days. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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