northern duke Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 Dear all, About a week ago I finally decided to drop out of school for the semester and start again during the spring semester. I went down to the financial aid office to settle the legal “trappings” as it were of the situation and discovered that dropping out, in actuality, was not an option.As it turns out, if I were to drop out now I would have to pay back the entire sum of the financial aid that I had received prior to starting school. This is quite obviously not an option at all. So, in summation it would appear that I am royally screwed. After this meeting I attended classes for about four days unsuccessfully. It is exactly as I had predicted. I can’t seem to get a grip on anything. I really do want to focus but it’s just all too different and hard. One time in Psychology class The Professors called my name in class about ten times before I even heard him. I just couldn’t hear him! That’s not right. He spoke to me after class and told me that if I didn’t get a grip soon he would kick me out. The following day my Grandparents took me out to buy some new cloths (always a pleasure), and while we were out to lunch, I tried to explain to them the difficulties I was experiencing. All he seemed to hear was that I wasn’t doing well in school. He explained to me that if I didn’t pass all of my classes I would quote; “Very much disappoint him.” Please understand that I very much want to please my Grandfather. I really do. I love him more than anyone in the world. He is the only man that I have ever known in my own family. But I’ve spent so much of my life trying to please him and always coming up short. I truly feel bad about being his grandson. He deserves someone who will carry his name to something great, and I don’t feel that I am that person. I feel indescribably worthless. I don’t know what will happen with college. I’ll try my best but I already feel worn to my hilt. So, what now?Christian (The Duke). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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