WendyJ Posted October 12, 2007 Report Share Posted October 12, 2007 Well my friends another weekend is upon us, was wondering what everyone is doing this weekend. As usual I couldn't wait till the weekend got here and as I sit here on the computer I hear nothing but the hum of the computer and a few of my dogs playing. It is only in the low 50's here in Jersey and my daughter is working till 8pm and then has a Karate meeting. It is one of those nights that Steve and I would have gotten take out food and rented a movie and lit the fireplace. Well I rented the movie 1408 by Stephen King and am trying to decide what kind of take out to get but this silence is killing me. I am all alone in this house and I don't like it one bit. Nobody to debate with on what we are having to eat, nobody to sit here with over coffee and open the mail and nobody to cuddle with and watch a good scarey movie. Is everyone else as lonely as I am? Is anyone else as starved for attention as I am? Does anyone else feel this pain is never going to go away? I know it has only been 7 months but this is not getting any better, I feel like an old widow at 49. I am tired of everyone feeling sorry for me and to tell you the truth I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and actually I am just plain tired. I don't want to be told that in time it will get better, I want Steve back...I want my old life back.....I want a future back with him....I want to look forward to the seasons and the Holidays again and without him that just is never going to happen ever again. You know I kinda knew this mood was coming tonight, I was up on the top of the roller coaster last night and I knew I had to swoop down at some point and here I am, can someone stop this ride please, I feel sick !!! Love,Wendy P/S The movie stunk !!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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