twilcox1978 Posted December 6, 2004 Report Share Posted December 6, 2004 Umm It's been 2 months to this day my mother has passed(October 6, 2004). I just keep asking myself was it a mistake I stayed by her casket the whole time of the service? I am asking myself this because I just keep having the last image of her at the viewing poping up in my head all the time. Weither I am driving my car, sleeping, or just working. We had a 3 hour service and I stayed by her side every minute!!!! I could leave her, it was almost like i was protecting her from everyone.... I still to this day wake up at 2:10am (the time she died) without fail.. What does all this mean? Is it because I wasnt there for her when she died, guilt? What should I do? It's just all so hard to deal with. So much has gone wrong this year and still keeps going bad. God how can I get 2005 to be better... All I do to get through all this hurt is hold my daughters and dont let them go.. So afraid of losing them next... Where is all this fear coming from? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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