keyboardplayer Posted November 3, 2010 Report Share Posted November 3, 2010 I have so much anger inside me right now I want to destroy something. My sister passed away October 25 of this year. She was 20 years old. I know they say anger is part of grief, but I've never experienced it like this. I just have this white-hot rage inside me. I'm not mad at God or anyone else, at least I hope not, but I'm just so mad because it happened. It scares me because I'm usually a happy person, and this isn't me. I was trying to play my piano today, and at first I was playing my favorite song, but then I started BANGING on the keys as hard as I could. I just needed a way to release the pressure. I'm a work-from-home medical transcriptionist, and I haven't really been able to work today because I have been having a major-league melt down. It hurts so bad it feels like it's stabbing me in the heart. I try to read to get my mind off of it, but it seems like my brain is stuck. It's so hard for me to do the basic things that you have to do. I have to give myself a pep talk in order to get out of bed and get in the flippin shower. I just want the pain to go away, but judging by the posts on this forum, it probably won't go away anytime soon. I just hope my piano can handle being played hard. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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