Why Do I Feel So Empty?

[Cat_Lady]

Today it has been 8 weeks since my Mom passed. I keep hoping to feel better but I seem to be feeling worse. I feel so very alone. I miss just knowing she is here for me, no matter what and whithout judgement. How do we heal without those who were our strength?

[Anne3]

Cat_Lady, I don't know how to heal either, all I do is continue to live day and do the best I can. It has been six weeks since I lost my Mom who was my rock and I have waves of hurt and agony where I feel like I'm going to literally break into two, I let it out and then I continue on. I feel alone and empty but I have to keep going as I have children who depend on me. What helps for me is to remember what my mom would have told me (she was all about doing what you need to do) and then keep putting one foot in front of the other. That's the best I can do right now and I am okay with that. I hope you find something that will help you get through the day. When I think too far ahead it doesn't help so I just try to get through each day and if I break down then I let it out and keep going on with my day. I also feel comfort just sharing with others who understand. {hugs}

[eren]

I lost my mom 9 weeks ago. She lived with me for 10 years. I miss her every single minute of every day. I fall apart a lot but I get up again because my mom would not want me to give up. I miss talking to her and sharing my day with her. I write to her in my journal every day. I tell her everything about my day, how I am feeling and how I am struggling to cope. It's been a huge help to me.

[Guest Nicholas]

Nine weeks to the day since my darling son passed away and I still cry uncontrollably.

[BellaRosa]

Cat Lady, Today is 15 weeks exactly since I lost my mom and I still cry uncontrollably at times, and feel depressed and lonely almost continually. The time between break downs is lengthening, but sometimes I will have 3-4 days at a time that are almost too much to bear. It still takes all of my strength and energy to go to work everyday and be around other people. I keep thinking that if my mom was here, she would know exactly what to say to make it all better, but it's ironic that I need her to help me get over the loss of her.

[nanasbaby]

I lost my mother two months ago too. The "relief" has most certainly worn off. I think the beautiful spring weather is making things even worse. Somehow being closed up due tou cold weather was a protection. Now we are entering her favorite time of the year. She used to love to plant flowers and sit on patio in her straw hat and wave at the neighbors. When the weather got nice she and my father stayed quite busy. Things are so much harder than we ever imagine or are willing to say. My father's birthday was last Friday, and none of us really felt like celebrating but no one actually said it. Does that make sense ? Every day I cry. Yesterday I got so angry. I keep thinking back to the day we buried our mother..

[Cat_Lady]

Thank you all! It really does help talking with others who understand. I know Mom would know exactly what to say. I know she would want me to just keep going "one day at a time". Spring is going to be really hard as it was her favourite time of year too. I have a daughter, with special needs, and I have to get through each day for her, just like Mom did for me. I said to my husband just this morning "we can't have it both ways ... if we were fortunate enough to have a great relationship while she was here, them we must suffer through our loss now that she is gone". You all give me strength and hope. I hope sometime to be able to return the favour. (Hugs)

[DebFromLodi]

3 years for me and i still have that empty feeling. Today is my 4th birthday without my mom. She died on 2/2/2008. I am going to take her flowers for my birthday. i know she would have wanted to sing Happy Birthday to me today.