Trying To Understand...

[Amz]

Well I haven't posted in a while and so I thought I would share some things with you, and then maybe you can help me understand a bit better. I lost my Mother in November 2008 to cancer. Ever since then I haven't really cried about it, I don't know if it was to do with her having the illness for about 3 years. I was 15 at the time. Even at the funeral I didn't cry...I don't like talking about it even today. The thing is I don't understand why I don't when that's what other people do. I do want to talk about it, but I just can't, its like there is something blocking me from my feelings about it maybe? Another thing is that I kind of feel like I don't miss her, but I know I do, and I don't think that's right.

I hope you can maybe help a bit! It would be appreciated!!