Miss My Angel...my Mom-My Best Friend Ever

[simi]

Hi Friends,

I lost my Mom in February of this year, in a few hours it will be exactly 5 months. The tears never stop, the hollow feeling keeps striking back. The worst part is that emptiness in life that no one else can fill. She treated me like a princess. I was one of the most special person for her, smallest of my needs were addressed with so much grace and love that she made it all seem so easy. I felt so powerful with her arms around me. But an amazing thing happened a few minutes back. I put an incense stick in front of her picture and was saying my prayers and crying at the same time as I was missing her so badly and I kept complaining to God how could he do this to me, knowing very well, so much I needed to do and learn and share yet with her, I had been telling God to show me some sign that my Mom is in a better place. Tonight, after I said my prayers, I saw a small formation of cloud almost oozing out of the windows coming right into my kitchen. I immediately closed my eyes and extended my hands in air and felt she was holding me and telling me to smile and be strong.

I will remain with this hollowness probably forever, but I know she would protect me and would keep guiding me the way she always did. Love u Ma.

Seema

[Aquarius7]

Hi Simi and welcome!

You have come to the right place! Lots of great people here who will listen and help.

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.

I too lost my best friend in my entire life that I ever had and will ever have. My Mom was the world to me. I loved her more than anything or anyone in the world. My life will never, ever be the same. I don't like life without her. That's how close we were. However, I try to keep her close in my heart and do what she would want me to do, which is to carry on. If you are interested, you can read my many other posts with my story.

That is a great story about the cloud. That sort of thing will continue to happen and you will notice those sort of things if you are paying attention and spiritually aware. Lots of "coincidences" and "signs" will happen that are from your Mom. I am seeing them more and more and they make me feel my Mom's closeness and guidance. You will see them too.

Peace!

[Kavish]

HI Simi,

We all miss our loved ones. But it is our chance to show that we will always have the courage to believe in them. They are always with us.

Take care,

Kavish

[simi]

Hi Aquarius7

Thanks so much, yes your right. The void always stays, yet I felt good today after I said my prayers and made her fav sweet dish. I almost felt she was devouring over it and sending lots of blessings my way. Yet, Moms are Moms, you need them with you, holding ur finger, showing u the way, though I feel that spiritually. I still miss her physical presence around me so much that it breaks my heart. Going off subject, are you an Aquarian?

Love,

Simi

[simi]

Hi Nicole,

We almost lost our most special person probably about the same time, how are coping with it? I agree with you these angels are definitely watching us and infact protecting us at every step.

Simi

[simi]

Hi Kavish,

It is a very hard process, one's worst nightmare...at times I feel fine, at times I feel very low. But I have not felt really happy after she left me.I do comedy and always love making people laugh, I still do but that feeling of ecstacy, feeling of being up in air has vanished.

I am sure I will have a good life and would continue to be fine with best of family, friends like you around me, however, I know that space---that hollow space----that vacuum will pertain too.

Love,

Simi

[Aquarius7]

Going off subject, are you an Aquarian?

Yes, I am.

[BellaRosa]

Hi Simi,

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I lost mine in November, just over 8 months ago. The tears come less frequently, but that emptiness is still there and probably always will be. It's odd that I'm an adult (29) and functioned completely fine before, but now I just want my mom so badly. I feel so alone despite having a wonderful husband, my father, and friends.

I'm glad you were able to feel your mom's presence around you. I haven't experienced this yet, and while it's discouraging, I am hopeful. I've had several dreams about her, but no real encounters during the day yet.

Erin

[simi]

Yes, I am.

nice...me too...born on feb 2nd, my Mom always called me her Fabruary girl and she also became my Febrauary girl as I lost her physical being on Feb 20th. I say physical being becase I feel her with me each and every second of my life. I wore her suit today and felt her arms around me. How are you hanging in there?

[simi]

Hi Erin,

I am sorry to hear about your loss, and I know it is very very painful...I dreamt of her yesterday night and she looked very tired, she was busy arranging my clothing, my jewelry and just making sure all my things are in place. I feel lonely too, but believe me we are not alone in this, they are always with us, watching us, wanting us to smile...I cry everyday and the feeling is miserable to live without her. But believe me,what I experienced the other day is just your mindset, do this for her today. Close your eyes and think of something she loved to do and imagine she is doing the same thing now also, and visualize urself with her,feel her arms around you, you will definitely experience her. Do keep in touch.

Lots of love,

seema

[niamh]

hi Seema,

I'm so sorry for the loss of your dear Mom, your photo is beautiful. I love how you described how your Mom treated you, sounds same as my Dad, I was his one and only princess and the world was ALWAYS a safe place no matter what when he was here.

Like you I also feel this hollowness is here for always on this earth and all I can do is learn to live with it because nothing can ever fill that gaping hole.

I'm glad you had that feeling of your Mom holding you, I haven't felt my Dad around me at all. In saying that though at times I wonder how I am still functioning in this world without him and I think he must be helping me through this because for me there is no other explanation as to how I have survived this.

I've lost that true sense of happiness also and I can't imagine I will ever have it back again, the truly best times are over because I feel even if something great happened to make me somewhat happy it will always be tainted with my Dad not being here to call and share it with.

sending you ((hugs)) and comfort,

Niamh

[simi]

Dear Niamh,

Thanks, this picture is also a reminder to me for all the good and happy times I had, which perhaps as you said, can never occur again. There will always be this void. I also don't know why and how I survived this, how am I going on, but the real essence of life has been lost somewhere without her. I feel this painful emptiness which is hard to describe in words. But I tray to be happy as I know she would want me to, so would u, wouldn't u?

[pattysmooth]

I know how you feel losing your mother if very hard. I lost my Mom and it hurts terribly. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Know that she with you. Pattysmooth

[simi]

I know how you feel losing your mother if very hard. I lost my Mom and it hurts terribly. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Know that she with you. Pattysmooth

Hi Patty,

Yes, it has been the hardest time of my life...I just got to know I am pregnant and though I am happy, I feel the void all the more, as she really wanted me to be a Mom...but today it is exactly 9 months that she left the material world and I am sure this magic is happening all because of her blessings...I miss her soooooooooooo much...life is not the same without her..