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My Millie girl was asalt and pepper mini schnauzer, her papered name was princess millineum ly mi, named for the year 2000 she was our princess and ly for my wife lynn and me mike, she was only 11&1/2 yrs old,, dhe had diabetes for 4 yrs but i monotered it used more of my test strips on her than myself and she was having no problems 6 weeks ago she became tired i called her lazy old girl, she didnt want to take our long walks and didnt exert herself playing, she was to the vet numerous times he just blamed it on her getting older, on the 25th she had been off her food for several days i took her in she was dehydrated received fluids and vitamin shots brought her home and on the 25 she was the old millie happy and my old girl, on the 26 when she stood up in bed shook to wake me like always she was breathing at a super pace, i took her in the dr. said her heart murmor was worse and she sounded as if she was getting fluid around her heart, i gave her to the assistant she looked at me with those beautiful eyes and i said dadddy will be back in the morning, at 750 on the 27 the dr called and said you need to come,,now, we only live about 5 minutes away we were there by 8am, My Millie was unconsious on the table with oxygen going still breathing so quickly my wife and i petted her i talked to he /sobbing so hard, she was unresponsive she had had a heart attack and probably a stroke,i cried told her she was going to go chase squirrels and rabbits, told the dr to give it to her,, she died in my arms,, i brought her home she voided all over me but i didnt care my wife drove while i held her, we brought her in the house our 3 yr old mini schnauzer Beth all excited to see us came running over, i let her see Millie she stopped being happy sniffed her and went and sat down and looked, i held her in our chair then gave her to the wife ,went out back where she loved to roll in the grass and dug her grave,,we layed her on her sheepskin i covered her with my sweat soaked shirt so she could smell her daddy forever layed her frisbee in and we covered her , it took 5 days before i made her marker,, im 60yrs old have been in war seen buddies killed lost my mom and friends but i cant stop crying and grieving over her,, when does it get better, did i somehow let her down,, God if he exisits ignored my rare talk with him to make her well on that last night when she was alone in a cage at the vet,, did she feel abandoned and scared,, my wife says it will get better but i hurt so much so much did she know dad had been with her at the end i hope so

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My dear friend, my heart hurts for you as I read of the sorrow you're feeling in the wake of the death of your faithful companion, Millie. I'm so sorry for your loss. If you read any of the other posts in this forum, you will soon discover that you are among true animal lovers here, and not one among us does not know the agony of losing a cherished animal companion. I'm barely three months past the death of my own beloved Tibetan terrier, Beringer, who was at my feet or by my side for the last 15 years ~ so I have some idea of the pain you are feeling now. All I can tell you is that whatever you are feeling is completely normal under the circumstances. There is no right or wrong way for you to feel about this. It may help to think of the intensity of your grief as the measure of the love you shared with Millie ~ and that is why this hurts so much. I'm sure Millie shared nearly every aspect of your life with you, in ways that many fellow humans never did. The intimacy and unconditional love we share with our pets is rarely felt in the (usually much more complicated) relationships we have with other people. It is only natural that we feel so bereft when all of that is gone. But I want to gently suggest to you that the love you have for Millie has not gone anywhere ~ death may have ended her earthly life, but the love you shared is forever. Do whatever you can to preserve and honor her memory, and keep that love alive in your heart. Know that we understand, we care, and we are here for you, wishing you peace and healing.

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Mike and Lynn,

I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved Millie. My husband passed away 6 1/2 years ago and one of the things that really bothered me is the hospital made me leave while they worked on him (he was having a heart attack) so I wasn't able to be there as he was ushered into the next world. One thing struck me about what you wrote and that is, it just occurred to me, that in both Millie's case and in my George's, at the time they died they were so busy with just getting through the moment, I doubt they were aware we were not there. At any rate, they knew how much we loved them and I don't think for one second they felt we abandoned them. I love how you told her she'd be chasing squirrels and rabbits...that is the one consolation I have with the loss of my husband, that things are somehow better for him, no more struggles or pain, and I will join him someday.

Yes we can survive a lot in life, but it just takes our beloved pet to bring us to our knees. My Arlie, 1/2 Husky and 1/2 Golden Retriever, would definitely do that to me if he died...it's something I know I'll face someday, and really I wouldn't want him to outlive me because who would take care of him, I would not want him to have to go through life without me even if someone were to take him in, so even though I know I'll face this same loss with him someday, it's the price I pay for sharing his love today.

I wish I could say something to ease your heart, I know how hard it is, I've lost many pets over my lifetime and I'm 59, but alas, I'm at a loss what to say...only that I care and I'm sorry.

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I had a similiar situation with my Foxie girl. I swear she tricked me into taking her to the vet where her heart stopped! I really believe that they chose when,when and how they want to go, having done what they came here to do on this planet. The simple fact that she was at the vets says to me that you did all that was possible to do!!! How lucky that she was to find you to love! I cannot imagine a better ending then in the arms of one I loved! They have move the proved that humans can hear what is being said and done even tho they are "unconscious", I have no doubt that she did know you were there too! I believe is is around you without pain or suffering as my dogs are around me in spirit. Make no mistake, I miss them terribly! I feel that when I pass to the other side in hardly any time for them, they will be waiting with love,kisses and wags for me.

Hugs-CJ Anderson

My Millie girl was asalt and pepper mini schnauzer, her papered name was princess millineum ly mi, named for the year 2000 she was our princess and ly for my wife lynn and me mike, she was only 11&1/2 yrs old,, dhe had diabetes for 4 yrs but i monotered it used more of my test strips on her than myself and she was having no problems 6 weeks ago she became tired i called her lazy old girl, she didnt want to take our long walks and didnt exert herself playing, she was to the vet numerous times he just blamed it on her getting older, on the 25th she had been off her food for several days i took her in she was dehydrated received fluids and vitamin shots brought her home and on the 25 she was the old millie happy and my old girl, on the 26 when she stood up in bed shook to wake me like always she was breathing at a super pace, i took her in the dr. said her heart murmor was worse and she sounded as if she was getting fluid around her heart, i gave her to the assistant she looked at me with those beautiful eyes and i said dadddy will be back in the morning, at 750 on the 27 the dr called and said you need to come,,now, we only live about 5 minutes away we were there by 8am, My Millie was unconsious on the table with oxygen going still breathing so quickly my wife and i petted her i talked to he /sobbing so hard, she was unresponsive she had had a heart attack and probably a stroke,i cried told her she was going to go chase squirrels and rabbits, told the dr to give it to her,, she died in my arms,, i brought her home she voided all over me but i didnt care my wife drove while i held her, we brought her in the house our 3 yr old mini schnauzer Beth all excited to see us came running over, i let her see Millie she stopped being happy sniffed her and went and sat down and looked, i held her in our chair then gave her to the wife ,went out back where she loved to roll in the grass and dug her grave,,we layed her on her sheepskin i covered her with my sweat soaked shirt so she could smell her daddy forever layed her frisbee in and we covered her , it took 5 days before i made her marker,, im 60yrs old have been in war seen buddies killed lost my mom and friends but i cant stop crying and grieving over her,, when does it get better, did i somehow let her down,, God if he exisits ignored my rare talk with him to make her well on that last night when she was alone in a cage at the vet,, did she feel abandoned and scared,, my wife says it will get better but i hurt so much so much did she know dad had been with her at the end i hope so

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So so hard to lose a pet. I have done that and as I look at our Bentley, my therapist as I grieve my husband's death, lying at my feet-I pray his health stays level for a long time. He is 8.

I came across this book about pet loss. I have not read it but the reviews are great and I thought it might help. I plan to order it just to have. It is Snort's Special Gift. It is at Amazon.

I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets are family....and they are there with us all day and night, every day and night...makes it so tough. I now it is hard to remember the good times when we are grieving (believe me) but maybe once or twice a day, remember a happy moment with our furbaby.

Mary mfh

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