LadyAnn Posted January 8, 2013 Report Share Posted January 8, 2013 (edited) I just lost my dog suddenly on sat night. I had Kacy since she was about 4 months old. She was my first pet that was truely mine and that I had from a baby to death. My husband and I have never been able to have human kids so she was my baby. I cradled her when I held her or she would sit up right and have 1 leg around each side of my neck. If she was up she would be cleaning my ears. for some reason she loved licking my ears. When she was tired she would cradle her head in my neck or sleep on my lap or with her friend. I am told a min pins usually does not live to 9 and I was lucky but I have read they can live til 12 to 15 years. For 9 she still played and ran like she was a baby. So much energy. It was a typical night, I let her and Leah (my other dog) out for the bathroom and prepped their food bowls. Kacy usually was done going first and came in. I played with her for a few moments to get her to eat since she can get hyper she gets distracted til i show her the food, Leah came in and started eating. Everything was normal and I walked to the bedroom to do something. My husband yelled at me to come out to the kitchen something was wrong with Kacy. She was on the floor away from her food bowl convulsing and struggling for air. In a state of panic Ishoved my finger into her throat to see if she had something stuck. it was clear. I was loosing my baby, I began CPR and I was still loosing her. We stopped hearing her heart, I began pumping it. I looked in her eyes and as they were on me I could see it in her face she was going. I picked her to cradle her and thats when I knew she was gone, Her bladder released what little bit was left. I held her like I always did and screamed and cried with my husband. So sudden, no warning, no reason Our vet of 9 years said she might have had a stroke or heart attack and in her bi yearly check ups is not something you see. It has been 3 days and I am still struggling as is my husband, I feel lost, my house is to quiet ( my other dog is not noisy) and depressed I will never see her again. I am trying to tell myself she was her with me for a reason but I really can not get that to make me feel better. I have been researching animal communicators but feeling it is not real and I really need legit if I can speak to her. I have experienced human death with a double murder in front of me and a loved one who passed to early from depression. This is just so different and I think it is because of the love and connection we had and I can not give it up til I know for sure she is somewhere and ok. I know that is my logically side and my Christian side says to believe but right now my faith is failing me and I am sure that is normal. I am tired of some saying it was a dog not a human and tired of reading people saying these things and then I came across this site and am hoping it can help me thru this since I am not alone. I have lost all interest in everything I was doing before this tragedy now with the thought of "what's the point? I might not be here tommorow and what would I have done all this for?" Maybe my normal 9-5 job is all I should do and stop pursing what was making me happy as work since my small package of joy has been taken from me. I am just not sure how to feel at this point...I love seeing my other dog and my husband but man my home is so sad right now. I don't hear her dog tag jingleing on her collar nor see her running thru the house or her high pitch yipes when we walk in the door anymore. my home is not normal anymore. Thank you for "listening" The vet did tell me I did everything they would have done and even though I work in the medical field I feel so inadequate now aswell with all this that I could not save her Edited January 8, 2013 by LadyAnn Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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