KATPILOT Posted April 30, 2013 Report Share Posted April 30, 2013 Since I have now passed the two year mark, I have come to realize as I listen to what others say and feel, that I relate so much to what grief feels like in the beginning. Maybe it will do some good to have this thread up because for those who are new to grief, you are most likely not thinking much about yourselves. You may even like me wish you could die. I was talking to a friend of Kathy's who actually was my friend from years ago but they became close and had a lot of good times together. Her name is Ginger and she told me when I was at my lowest, "If you want to die, you will. Your body will develope a disease and your wishes will come true" That was the day I stopped wanting to die and thought about how I could survive grief and keep on living. The one thing I didn't think about was taking care of myself. It wasn't just my son's or my grandchildren that made me want to live. It was what I knew Kathy would be saying to me. As a pilot, I was taught and always think about this basic truth. Always fly the airplane first. Then deal with the problem at hand. Doing something for yourself once in a while helps. I think they would be happy we did. This week I rented a violin. I have never played one but I want to. I am taking lessons and it is totally new to me. This I did just for me. I felt good inside just driving home. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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