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[brat#2]

Gwen, I feel your pain.

Joyce

 

[Gwenivere]

Thanks Kay and Joyce.  I hope you are right, Kay.  That this, too, shall pass.  I know I have been carrying it a long time.  And just when I thought that was the focus, I came home tonight missing him so much and wishing I could talk to him.  I'm so tired of not having someone to share the day with.  So another meltdown while I cleaned the shower.  ANYTHING to avoid sitting when I can't get a perspective.  I don't know how we get used to this silence.  I'm sure I'll be back to blaming him as the night drags on.  Seems a cruel thing to do but it was his departure that started this.  Anger or pain.  Yet I know it was not his intention.  I just imagine he would feel the same.  What a helpless place that puts him as it would have me.    Poor guy can't even defend himself.  

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17 minutes ago, Gwenivere said:

Yet I know it was not his intention.  I just imagine he would feel the same.  What a helpless place that puts him as it would have me.    Poor guy can't even defend himself.  

I have Thought this so many times!