Guest Sarah Mueller Posted December 3, 2005 Report Share Posted December 3, 2005 My father died in February of this year, just shy of his 57th birthday. For the most part my dad was in good health, although he liked his beer and smokes . To say that he was a hard worker is an understatement, as far as I know he had never missed a day of work in his life. My dad was an over-the-road truck driver. He hated being a truck driver, but it paid the bills and my mom didnt have to work so he did what he had to. So one morning my mom came over and said that my dad didnt call her last night. To most people that statement shouldnt seem like a big deal, but my dad ALAWYS called my mom every night. I tried to blow off the conversation and went to work. About 5 hours later my world stopped. I work in a veterinary hospital and most of the time I do not get personal calls, however that morning I was paged saying that a man named Ronnie was on the phone for me. I immediately knew what was wrong. Ronnie was my dads best friend and I hadnt seen or talked to him for several years. It took everything that I had to pick up the reciever but I did. I drew in a deep breath and asked Ronnie what was going on, he told me that I was needed at home. I asked him where my dad was and he avoided answering me. At that point I was hysterical so he answered me, Sarah, your daddy died in Garden City, please come home. I wanted to die. My father was my world and he did alone in his GD truck of a massive heart attack, ALONE at the age of 56. There are not enough words to say just how much his death changed my life. When he died my youngest daughter was only 2 months old, he hadnt even held her yet. I am only 30 years old and I feel like I have aged 20 years since he has died. On the surface I seem normal, but underneath I feel like I dont exist. I have managed to almost destroy my marriage and alienate my 10 year old daughter. Does this ever get better? Any help would be greatly appreciated. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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