widower Posted December 26, 2013 Report Share Posted December 26, 2013 http://www.nlmsf.org/deborah-d-jones-angel-page.html I can't believe how long it's been already. In fact there's still a part of me that can't believe any of this is real, as ridiculous as that sounds. I only miss you more each day. And nobody sees it. With rare exception, no one has seen all the tears, the anguish, the sleepless nights, the rage...the massive darkness your loss has thrown on my life. But to some extent, I probably I have that coming, so that isn't what gets me the most. What gets me is that YOU didn't deserve ANY of this. And I hate life for that cruelty. When I think of all you went through, so bravely battled and endured, only to lose in the end.....I feel so angry, so frustrated that I couldn't stop it. I can only hope you're still out there, somehow; you still being "out there" and well and happy is the only thing that seems logical or just. And that I'll see you again - sometimes that hope is all I have. I love you Deb. Please be waiting for me. And forgive the many, many ways I was lacking, if you can, though I don't deserve that either. Merry Christmas. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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