spela Posted December 19, 2005 Report Share Posted December 19, 2005 December is hard. The first half I was quiite "successful" at ignoring that the holidays are coming ... Now the first Christmas card came - it says "May all your wishes come true" ... I don't know how to respond to that or how to respond to "Happy New Year" ... I had one wish, that he gets well. He didn't. He died. I don't have any wishes now. Nothing else matters anymore ... How different it all was a year ago. When I still had faith. When I still believed he would be alright. When I still had so much hope - and felt alive ... Next year it will be the first whole year without him. Nothing to look forward to. In fact I wanted to write something else ... I wanted to say how much I appreciate this forum. I am really grateful for it. It helps me feel normal, even now when everybody seem to be celebrating, and I can't ... Thank you, to all of you who write here. Thank you Walt, Kay, ustwo, Dusky and others. Thank you Nikki, you are a true friend. And thank you Marty - for this forum. Words can't say how much it has helped me and how much it means to me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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