Guppy2006 Posted April 28, 2015 Report Share Posted April 28, 2015 I recently lost the love of my life. My Husband of 10 years died on April 17th of cardiac arrest. My husband and I raised my 10 year old Grandson since birth and last year in April, we got my three youngest grandchildren 9, 7 and 2. We moved into a bigger house in June of 2014 to have room for everyone. We never really liked the new place and the neighborhood and talked about looking for another place soon. On February 6th, In October of 2014, My husband started complaining of severe back pain but we contributed it to the move and his job (Walks alot). In January, he went to the doctors for a cold and cough. The doctor took a CT scan and found a spot on his lungs which he said was probably pneumonia. He was put on antibiotics but never seemed to get better. On February 6th of this year, he collapsed because he said he right leg simply gave out on him. I insisted we go to the Emergency room. The doctor again took tests and found a spot on his spine. Was not sure what it was so he sent him to Danville medical center to get tested. The doctors there did an MRI and found my husband had cancer throughout his body. They believe the primary was Lung cancer but had spread to the bones, the brain, the liver and the abdomin. We were devastated but determined to fight. He was scheduled for radiation and chemotherapy. The following weeks were hard with the treatments and having to travel long disctances for radiation but he continued to be strong. In March, He did not gett sick during treatment but did become very weak. In March, he could not get out of bed anymore and lost the use of his legs. I became the primary cargiver but enlisted my daughters to help so I could continue working part time. My Mother-in-law came to visit and helped out for 2 weeks before having to return home. On April 17th, He was in good spirits and ordered takeout for the kids (He was craving hot wings). I called my youngest daughter to come keep an eye on him and the grandkids so I could pick up the food. As I was pulling out, I heard my daughter yell "Call 911, he's having a heart attack". My husband was in excruciating pain and the EMS said he was having a heart attack and were life flighting him to Danville. While they were waiting for the helicopter, he went into cardiac arrest and they took him into the Emergency room. His heart stopped twice and they put in a breathing tube. When I seen him, he had a tear coming out of the side of his eye and I told him to continue fighting. He was life fligted to Danville for a catherization and I followed in my car.The trip takes over an hour and on the way, I did alot of thinking. contemplating what he was going through and the talks we had. He was adamant about not wanting to be kept alive by machine. So when I got to the hospital, I spoke to the doctor and told him that my husband did not want to be kept alive by machine. We waited until 2 of his brothers could come to the hospital (He was the oldest of 6 boys) and had them take him off the breathing machine. My husband died within minutes. This has been the worst nightmare I have ever lived through. I have been unable to go back to work because I work as a Behavioral secialist and therapist for Children andd unable to be sympathetic or compassionate to others right now. I am not suicidal and know deep down I will get through but do not see any light at the end of the tunnel right now. I joined this group to be able to express my sorrow and hopefully find my way out of this dark grief somehow. I want to be able to move on with him in my heart but live life again but he was my reason for living and although I have the grandkids (Who are staying with their aunt until I feel better), I can not imagine life without him. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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