Scottsgirl Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 Just drove home from picking my mom up from work. This occurred to me when I pulled into the driveway. I was talking out loud to Scott the entire way home. I'm thinking that it's a good thing it was dark because anyone who may have seen me would have thought I was completely off my nut! Four hours and ten minutes from now he will have been gone for 28 days, 4 weeks. Wow, how on earth have I made it this far? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 I talk to Deedo all the time day and night. It's okay if people think you're off your nut because in many respects you are. My wife of thirty-seven years died seventy-seven days and eight and a half hours ago. I haven't been the same since. And I am definitely off my nut. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scottsgirl Posted October 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 Relieved to know I'm not the only one. Thanks Brad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iPraiseHim Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 day 236, I still talk to me wife. It gives me comfort. After having several good days, today has been lonely and emotional. The reality of life is kicking in after having such a wonderful respite for a few day from work and daily life. Shalom Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 George- There must be something in the stars. I had a lonely and emotional day too. Mine started off with my son saying something to the effect that he wished he was retired like I am. I immediately went into a funk because I was forced into retirement by Deedo's cancer. I went from a career I adored to being a caregiver to the woman I adored so much more to living a life where I fail to find any significant meaning. This is not what my retirement was supposed to be. We were supposed to be traveling the world and living out our golden years together and then someday way down the road slipped painlessly and together into a new reality. So I cried most of the day and felt very lonely the rest. In bed early hoping for sleep and a better day tomorrow. Brad Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harleyquinn Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 (edited) I talk to Michael outloud daily. Normally when I'm driving.....I know I look crazy but I don't care. I figure other drivers just assume I have a Bluetooth on or something....In crowds I talk to him in my head......so maybe I am crazy....haha Edited October 15, 2015 by Harleyquinn Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
debi.williams Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 I am glad we don't have to keep our feelings of being crazy a secret on this site. Grief is like madness http://thoughtcatalog.com/katherine-milan/2012/05/what-they-dont-tell-you-about-grief/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scba Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 I mostly talk to my boyfriend in my head. I don't have a car, so when I'm out and walk, I sing love songs to him aloud. I'm crazy too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted October 15, 2015 Report Share Posted October 15, 2015 It's been ten years and I still talk to George, sometimes out loud, sometimes in my thoughts, but he's never ceased being a part of me.Today I got the news that a friend from church passed away this morning. It took me by shock. His wife recently had a stroke and couldn't come home, she'd been his caregiver since he had dementia, so he was having to stay with this kid and that one, he only wanted to be with his wife. I know he's better off now, but still, it's a shock, and I'm concerned for his wife. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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