I'm 46 and my Dad died four weeks ago. Both my sisters and my mum have talked of a heavy feeling in their chests, I feel very guilty because I don't have that feeling. I miss my Dad so so much and not a minute goes by when he's not in my thoughts. I think, in fact I know, my grief is compounded with the fact that my partner and I broke up three weeks before my Dad died so I'm probably mourning that as well. I live with my 16 year old daughter but she spends 4 out 7 nights at her dads, she has been great, letting me cry when I need to and listening when I need someone but at the end of the day, she's missing her Papa terribly. People say that it will get better but I just can't see that day coming at all. I try to be strong for my Mum, go in to see how she's doing (she's 70) but it's when I go home, that's when I feel it bad - most nights, I go home and go to bed but don't sleep........I've lost Grannies and Papas and a young cousin to suicide so I have mourned before but have never felt like this ever. Sorry if this doesn't make sense, I'm just typing as I think.
