Valerie33

Barbie, I'm so sorry. It really is traumatic and heartbreaking and I truly understand what you're going through. I hope time will help ease your pain as it has mine.

Thank you for your kind words. Although I know it was an accident, I don't know that I will ever get over the guilt. What if and should haves aren't going to do anything but slowly drive me insane. Today is a little better. I am trying to take comfort in the fact that I spoiled him while he lived here with us and that he did have a good life even though it was cut short. My son is bouncing back quicker than I am but I know we will be okay. Thank you for responding.

I adopted a long haired white cat 3 years ago. He was deaf agony had been brought back to the shelter twice already. I didn't really want another pet but they had drastically reduced his adoption fee in the hopes that he would get adopted instead of having to put him down. This morning I was doing laundry. It was my son's jeans aND heavy duty jacket. I heard it thumping and didn't think anything of it..I assumed it was his clothes. It wasn't. Our cat must have jumped in. He was dead. I can't get past it. If I had only checked.... I can't believe I killed him. My 13 year old is devastated. He loved White Cat. They were buddies for sure. We named him White Cat because he couldn't hear us when we called him anyway and it just kind of stuck. I saved him from the shelter only to kill him 3 years later. I'm horrified and guilt ridden and I just feel so utterly horrible.