I lost my father on September 7, 2009. I was very close to him and I was the one who did everything for him. I am one of 4 children. My 2 brothers and 1 sister all lived far away from him. I lived the next town over so I ran over his house when he needed me. He loved to see me when I came over. I have so much guilt that I could not do enough for him but I never knew he would leave this world so quick. I really am having a lot of problems and saddness when it comes to the holidays. Every holiday so far I made sure I was with friends to distract me from my father's loss. I know I can not escape from all the holidays but by then I hope things will be a little better. After my father's death I joined an 8 week bereavement group with my church and met really great caring people which really got me though the first 3 months of his death. Now I am in another group which is helping me. I am starting with a one on one counselor this week and I hope between the group and the counselor it will make the holidays a lot better. I was just wondering if anyone else felt that way around the holidays and does it get better. Rosebud
