Lost my wife on Dec 15, she was only 46. I have two teenage boys, 15 & 12 who took it hard but they seem to be coping ok.
I'm working from home which helps a lot as far as taking care of the kids and being there for them but also for me, between work
and house chores not much time left for thinking.
But when the kids go to sleep and I'm left by myself it hits like a freight train. I have experienced loss of family members before
(father, grandparents) but this is different, there's this huge void, intense pain for the loss and also regrets for plans postponed,
things I didn't do. She knew she was the love of my life but still I can't help thinking I could have done more for her, didn't
expect our time together to end so soon and I feel guilt.
I thank God for the kids, they give me purpose and strength. We remember her and hug and reassure each other that we'll pull through
if only because that's how she would have wanted it. Her passing has brought us closer than ever.
Thanks for letting me unload on you.
Wishing all in similar circumstances to find the strength to get through this difficult period in your lives.
