I know what your thinking. It's only been a year since my sister died and you would think everyone at work forgot. People don't know unless they have been through it. I work in the x ray department in a hospital. They are very good people. Yet they think it's over, the pain. You went through a much more painful situation than me. You have the why??? If you dwell in the why it might destroy you and i don't want that to happen to you. Just honor his life. If he did it on purpose or just had a over dose it doesn't matter. Don't get caught up in that. It will eat you up if you don't know. Hang in there, please. I want you around for years to come. Live it the best you can.
I lost my brother 2 months ago and cannot stop crying. I miss him so much. He was such a dynamic person. Why did he have to go? I too work in a hospital. I am a nurse and everyone thinks I should be "over this" by now. But I'm not. I loved my brother so much. My son is so much like him. I hate cancer and I hate the treatment for cancer. I even went and got checked to see if I have cancer. I lost my husband 19 years ago to cancer and now my brother. My husband was only 40 when he died and my brother only 55. Too young to be dying. The doctors want me in grief counseling. I think I probably better go because watching my brother die was like watching my husband die again and I loved both of them so much. My bother's death has been devastating to me. He and I were close growing up. He is the third brother I have lost now. We were 7. 5 boys and 2 girls. now we are 4. All of my brothers have died before the age of 60. It is like there is a curse on the family. Oh I miss him so much. I have to go to work and put it out of my mind and counsel others on their grieving. This can be very difficult without breaking down myself. But I do understand where they are coming from. It hurts so bad to loose someone you love so much. It breaks my heart.
Not "over It" Not "ok Now"
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I lost my brother 2 months ago and cannot stop crying. I miss him so much. He was such a dynamic person. Why did he have to go? I too work in a hospital. I am a nurse and everyone thinks I should be "over this" by now. But I'm not. I loved my brother so much. My son is so much like him. I hate cancer and I hate the treatment for cancer. I even went and got checked to see if I have cancer. I lost my husband 19 years ago to cancer and now my brother. My husband was only 40 when he died and my brother only 55. Too young to be dying. The doctors want me in grief counseling. I think I probably better go because watching my brother die was like watching my husband die again and I loved both of them so much. My bother's death has been devastating to me. He and I were close growing up. He is the third brother I have lost now. We were 7. 5 boys and 2 girls. now we are 4. All of my brothers have died before the age of 60. It is like there is a curse on the family. Oh I miss him so much. I have to go to work and put it out of my mind and counsel others on their grieving. This can be very difficult without breaking down myself. But I do understand where they are coming from. It hurts so bad to loose someone you love so much. It breaks my heart.