penelope

Your post is very touching Kay.

And there is truth in your last statement.

You are in my thoughts

penelope

Hope you are all well and the support here is lovely....thank you so very much.

Did my dad's service on Greek orthodox good friday........flew from London to the island he is buried on.

Thought I was prepared, and my family was just wonderful.

Since returning to London it has been so *dark* not getting his calls every morning.

Was a daddy's girl and it was always the two of us having fun and adventures.

He was loved by many people and just when I thought I knew everything possible so many people came to tell me what he had done for them in all manner.

My father was my treasure and these are dark days.

Dear kayc,

Thank you for your kind response.

Am 35, my dad died on the 16th December last year. It was sudden and my brain can't deal with him not being here.

Our lives were intertwined in every way as he was both parents and he gave me a *rich* life in terms of education and exploration of all aspects of life.

hugs to you kayc

penelope

It was sudden, he had a massive heart attack.

It seems I am stuck in this black hole, where I can't accept he is gone.

He was the most loving father, kind person and the person everyone relied on.

Others are grieving him, but as his only daughter people expect me to help them through their grief.

My mother left us when I was a child so he was both my mother and my father.

Does this ever get to a point where you can ever cope?

thank you all penelope