Stef3128

I made it thru Christmas but know I'm in a deep depression.  I miss Jason so much.  I'm making it minute by minute right know. Most of his dad's family  as not called me.  This bothers me. I wish it didn't. I related to you all on how you feel. Jan 1st would have been our 11th anniversary.  I'm dreading this so much.

Thank you  all so much. It's great to know I'm normal. 

Jason was a  wonderful man. Always helping someone.  I miss him so much. I  can tell people don't know how to act around me, they keep asking are you OK.  I want to say NO MY HUSBAND JUST PASSED AWAY. But I don't  I say I'm trying.  The first few days  I thought I was going to die and wanted to die. I knowJason wouldn't want that.

I'm sorry  yes I meant I have family there for me. They don't understand,  some think I should  be  OK. I will never be ok, I just have to keep going. I want time  to go back to when I had Jason. 

My name is Stephanie I live in Tennessee I'm 41years old. On September 5th 2015 my life changed forever.  My husband of almost 11 years had a epileptic seizure at 5:30 am that morning. This seziure was not a bad one like I have seen him have in the passed.  I did everything I always did when he had a seziure, I would always get the dog out of the bed and put him up and get the covers off of jason so he wouldn't trip getting up. He would always get up and walk around the house.  This time that didn't happen. I didn't know anything was wrong he was still breathing. I decided to lay back down for a little while  when he quit breathing  my mom started CPR I called  911 but after 40 minutes working on him he was gone. He was only 38 yes old. I am so mad that all the bad people live and my sweet husband is gone, it's not fair. I found this forum yesterday and I c an relate to  everyone.  I met Jason on the Internet  and the next day met him in person  and it was love at first sight for us both. I have ever family  who is theither for me. My brother  passed away  3 yes ago so my sister in law has helped a lot.  I'm thankful I've found this site.

My name is Stephanie I live in Tennessee I'm 41years old. On September 5th 2015 my life changed forever.  My husband of almost 11 years had a epileptic seizure at 5:30 am that morning. This seziure was not a bad one like I have seen him have in the passed.  I did everything I always did when he had a seziure, I would always get the dog out of the bed and put him up and get the covers off of jason so he wouldn't trip getting up. He would always get up and walk around the house.  This time that didn't happen. I didn't know anything was wrong he was still breathing. I decided to lay back down for a little while  when he quit breathing  my mom started CPR I called  911 but after 40 minutes working on him he was gone. He was only 38 yes old. I am so mad that all the bad people live and my sweet husband is gone, it's not fair. I found this forum yesterday and I c an relate to  everyone.  I met Jason on the Internet  and the next day met him in person  and it was love at first sight for us both. I have ever family  who is theither for me. My brother  passed away  3 yes ago so my sister in law has helped a lot.  I'm thankful I've found this site.